Are we just having an off day or is this just going to be a regular thing?

Is it, that everytime I want to speak my mind, that when you read it, things just get awkward, tense, and serious between us? I realize that everytime we're going through some tough times, and you ask me, "Are you busy tomorrow afterschool?" I just want to cry because that just sounds like that's the perfect time you want to break up with me. Sorry, my insecurities are eating me alive. I just can't focus on anything when your words can't leave my mind. Despite the simplicity of those blunt phrases, they leave a huge imprint on my mind. Somedays, I just want to escape from it all. Drive down to Socal, party it up, have a fling whatever. Maybe I'm not ready for a relationship yet. Not emotionally mature enough. Besides, if I stick with the same guy forever, I'll never have fun or I'm just depriving myself of the experience that I want before I get tied down and committed. I'm always complaining about how my mom is always depriving me of the teenage lifestyle I want, but these are the decisions I can make on my own. Fuck, for being so immature.

Back on Blogger. Tumblr's becoming too mainstream.

I just have to start posting here so people can stop reading my shit on Tumblr and confronting me about it.

So I haven't been on this thing for awhile...

On November 3rd, 2010, my best friend of three years asked me to be his girlfriend. :) We've been completely happy ever since. Just celebrated our official two months yesterday. Apparently as of today, I am his longest relationship. Don't worry, he's not a flake anymore. He's become quite the gentleman since our little "split" in 2008. I'm so happy to have him in my life. I could go on forever about the sweet things he does for me, many things girls wished guys would do for them. He does them all, without even knowing it. And I love that he is being himself 24/7. Communication is never a problem because since he's my best friend, and like most best friends, you tell them everything. We know when either of us has something on their mind, or something's bothering one of us. & we aim to resolve it as quickly and maturely as possible. I think we got most of the kinks out of our relationship, but there will be many more to come. I look forward to a long future with him. We do a lot of married couple stuff surprisingly. I love you darling. :)