Start cookin' healthier ; Go Green !

I've been learning alot the past few days at Green Cooking. I've been inspired to cook healthier meals ; well, I've been inspired to simply cook. At our summer exploration class this week, we've learned to make many delicious things, & at no expense of our weight. ;) haha every foodie's dream, right? Well, I've been ditching the fast food scene for awhile [the longest I've done was 9 months, very hard to do nowadays with these 24/7 mcdonalds & shit], and I feel great. My mom still thinks I needa lose a few pounds still. *sigh* Well, anyways, on Monday, we made guacamole & salsa. But me, my friends Tati(ana), Nica, Alondra & Christina made a guacasalsa. Haha. It was muy deliciosa ! Avocado, tomatoes, mangoes, cilantro, salt pepper, organic jalapeno sauce, manjo juice, & lime juice. Yumm ;D We also made fruit salad, corn salad, dates & cheese, & this tortilla dish I really can't remember the name of. It had corn tortilla, the sauce stuff, goat cheese...OH YEAH GOAT CHEESE ENCHILADAS!! hahahah anyways, monterey jack, this other kind of cheese, tomato, & cilantro. Good stuff, maaan =)We made it into a lasagna form, which made it taste even better! When we were cleaning up, Tati, Nica, Alondra & I were using the hose-like sink, where you can drag the hose thing wherever, and we had a water spraying fight. Good times, duude. Umm...just wondering if any of you notice this, but why do I keep saying "maan" & "duude" ? I promise I'll stop. Okay, anyways, on Tuesday, we made breakfast stuff, so me, Tati, Nica, Alondra & Christina and the rest of our class made our own muffins! Woo hoo!! we followed the basic muffin recipe, and added whatever dried fruit we wanted. We also made berry smoothies (ourselves, w/o supervision, LOL) & Ms. Buell (one of the teachers) made mango banana smoothies which were hella awesome, props to Ms. Buell. Tasted like stuff from Jamba Juice. Then we did this research thing on different fast food chains, and all the calories, fat, cholesterol, saturated fat, protein, sodium, etc. on all of them and replaced them with healthier substitues. Me, Tati, and this girl named Gemma did Panda Express. The Crispy Shrimp, ORANGE CHICKEN, Fried Rice, and Mixed Veggies : 1,050 calories. Daayyumm. Sorry people who loovveee Panda Express' Orange Chicken (including me): 584 calories. When we replaced our stuffies, we ended up with : 564 calories ! Duble Daayyumm !! Hahaha. Then we went back to the SLC, and made posters w/ taglines for our new & improved meals, but most of the time, all the frosh girls (soon to be sophomores!) : Carmen, Nica, Tati, Alondra, Christina, & Me were instead marking each other with markers & sparkly poster paint! Woo hoo! & we snuck into the men's restroom (well, some letters were torn off, and now it says, 'men res poo' & we shot some videos of us going in and stuff. hhahaha. dont tell the principal! LOL jkjk. the janitors locked the girls bathroom & we couldnt find any janitors to open the door. Okay on Wednesday, FIELD TRIP! supposedly the most fun day of the week, but it turned out to be the most boring. We got to Greens Restaurant (At Fort Mason Center, Building A). The food looked sooo goood!!!! OMFG ; but we did a tour & all the executive chef did was lecture, which kinda bored me cuz I wanted to eat!!!!! I didnt eat anything except a muffin I made MYSELF that morning. but I was staaarving cuz it was like 12:30. But the executive chef, Annie Somerville, was very nice, and shes a vegetarian too, just like the restaurant. It has a beautiful view of the harbor, and a very spacious, airy place. Very comfy too ;D After that, we took the bus to the UN Plaza's Farmers Market. We were divided into 2 groups : fruits & veggies. Each group was given $30-40 and we had to budget it all. I was in the veggies group. We sampled some strawberries, they're SOOOO DELICIOUS THIS TIME OF YEAR THEY HARVEST IT!! NO JOKE!! & Tati, Nica & I were staring at one of the guys selling mushrooms. HELLUHH FIINNNEE!! <3 haa we kept passing by back and forth from his lil tent just to glance at him. :) we noticed him cuz there were hella creepy guys there. like the guy selling dirty veggies. Yuck ! ;P We made pizza , which was hella good. Okay, since I'm finally coming back to edit this now (6.28.09) and practically forgot all the stuff we did on Thursday and Friday besides compiling our cookbooks, this is where I'll end it. =) When Ms. Buell sends us the cookbooks, I'll make sure to post it here! ;D

I'm just waiting for that one guy to prove they're not all the same..

A Special World by Sheelagh Lennon

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb..



Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like these are meant to last.



And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.



One Wish by Courtney Kuchta



If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

To the sound of your breath on my neck,

The warmth of your lips on my cheek,

The touch of your fingers on my skin,

And the feel of your heart beating with mine…

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

With anyone other than you.



What I Love About You by Crystal Jansen



I love the way you look at me,

Your eyes so bright and blue.

I love the way you kiss me,

Your lips so soft and smooth.



I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say, “I love you,”

And the way you’re always there.



I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are mine.



Never Have I Fallen by Rex Williams



Your lips speak soft sweetness

Your touch a cool caress

I am lost in your magic

My heart beats within your chest



I think of you each morning

And dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

And cannot express my delight



Never have I fallen

But I am quickly on my way

You hold a heart in your hands

That has never before been given away.



Your Name by Jessica Blade



I wrote your name in the sky,

But the wind blew it away.

I wrote your name in the sand,

But the waves washed it away.

I wrote your name in my heart,

And forever it will stay.



Love is…by Meghan



Love is the greatest feeling,

Love is like a play,

Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day,

Love is like a smile,

Love is like a song,

Love is a great emotion,

That keeps us going strong,

I love you with my heart,

My body and my soul,

I love the way I keep loving,

Like a love I can’t control,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,

I love you with all my heart,

And I have poured my entire soul into you,

Right from the very start.



I Will Love You Forever by Amanda Martinez

I love you so deeply,

I love you so much,

I love the sound of your voice

And the way that we touch.

I love your warm smile

And your kind, thoughtful way,

The joy that you bring

To my life every day.

I love you today

As I have from the start,

And I’ll love you forever

With all of my heart.

Forever And Always by Chris Engle



When I’m with you,

Eternity is a step away,

My love continues to grow,

With each passing day.



This treasure of love,

I cherish within my soul,

How much I love you…

You’ll never really know.



You bring a joy to my heart,

I’ve never felt before,

With each touch of your hand,

I love you more and more.



Whenever we say goodbye,

Whenever we part,

Know I hold you dearly,

Deep inside my heart.



So these seven words,

I pray you hold true,

“Forever And Always,

I Will Love You.”



My Love by Tasha Shores



My love is like an ocean

It goes down so deep

My love is like a rose

Whose beauty you want to keep.



My love is like a river

That will never end

My love is like a dove

With a beautiful message to send.



My love is like a song

That goes on and on forever

My love is like a prisoner

It’s to you that I surrender.



Love by Loy Bowman



Love is like a lump of gold,

Hard to get, and hard to hold.

Of all the girls I’ve ever met,

You’re the one I can’t forget.

I do believe that God above,

Created you for me to love.

He chose you from all the rest,

Because he knew I would love you the best.



Love Me by Amanda Martinez



Love me in the springtime, when all is green and new,

Love me in the summer, when the sky is oh so blue,

Love me in the autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,

Love me in the winter, when the snow is falling down.



Love me when I’m happy, and even when I’m sad,

Love me when I’m good, or even when I’m bad,

Love me when I’m pretty, or if my face is a disgrace,

Love me when I’m feeling good, or when I’m lost without a trace.



Love me always, baby, in the rain or shining sun,

Love me always, baby, after all is said and done,

Love me always, baby, until all our life is through,

Love me always, baby, for I’ll be loving you!



For You Are The One by Chris Messick



For you I would climb

The highest mountain peak

Swim the deepest ocean

Your love I do seek.



For you I would cross

The rivers most wide

Walk the hottest desert sand

To have you by my side.



For you are the one

Who makes me whole

You’ve captured my heart

And touched my soul.



For you are the one

That stepped out of my dreams

Gave me new hope

Showed me what love means.



For you alone

Are my reason to live

For the compassion you show

And the care that you give.



You came into my life

And made me complete

Each time I see you

My heart skips a beat.



For you define beauty

In both body and mind

Your soft, gentle face

More beauty I’ll ne’er find.



For you are the one

God sent from above

The angel I needed

For whom I do love.



Perfection In My Eyes by Ashley Borden



All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,

And for us to be together, to never be apart.



No one else in the world can even compare,

You’re perfect and so is this love that we share.



We have so much more than I even thought we would,

I love you more than I even thought I could.



I promise to give you all I have to give,

I’ll do anything for you as long as I live.



In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,

By the way you look at me I know we will last.



I hope that one day you’ll come to realize,

How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.



Will You Ever? By Erica



I don’t think you will

Ever fully understand

How you’ve touched my life

And made me who I am.



I don’t think you could ever know

Just how truly special you are

That even on the darkest nights

You are my brightest star.



I don’t think you will ever fully comprehend

How you’ve made my dreams come true

Or how you’ve opened my heart

To love and the wonders it can do.

You’ve allowed me to experience

Something very hard to find

Unconditional love that exists

In my body, soul, and mind.



I don’t think you could ever feel

All the love I have to give

And I’m sure you’ll never realize

You’ve been my will to live.



You are an amazing person

And without you I don’t know where I’d be.

Having you in my life

Completes and fulfills every part of me.



I Asked God by John Raine



I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet

I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day

I asked God for true love, he gave me that too

I asked for an angel and he gave me you.



Dreams by Jessica Trimble



I dream of your touch while you are away,

I dream of your smile all through the day,

I remember the day,

You came into my life,

I dream of the day I will be your wife.



I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,

I dream of the day I can say I do.

To be your wife,

To be together for life,

Is a dream I have,

Every night.



A Wish by Randy Schutte



I lie on the ground,

And stare into space,

The stars start to move,

Into the shape of your face.



I see you there now,

Looking down at me,

With that cute little smile,

That I like to see.

You say “close your eyes”,

“Tell me what you see”,

I see only two people,

Just you and me.



We’re walking on the shoreline,

With our feet getting wet,

The horizon turns pink, as the sun starts to set.



We make love through the night,

On that white sandy shore,

Then I hold you while thinking,

I could want nothing more.



Oh I wish I could be,

In that one special place,

As I lie on the ground,

And I stare into space…



Why? By Scott Wright



Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,

I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?

Why do I love you? I think and smile,

Because I know the list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,

So many little things that make me love you so much.

The way you support me, and help with my emotions,

The way that you care and show such devotion.

The way that you kiss, fills me with desire,

And how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.

The way your eyes shine when you look at me,

Lost with you forever is where I want to be.

The way that I feel when you’re by my side,

A sense of completion and overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,

The possibilities I see and the things we can do.

How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,

How that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.

I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,

But all you really must know is my love for you is real.



Keeper Of My Dreams By Denise Mangano



When you’re not here to share my days and nights

My life is so incomplete

For you are my heart, my soul

The ‘oneness’ I had known to seek



Without you I merely exist from day to day

With you I know that I will find

All that I have been searching for

My completeness, my eternal peace of mind



You are the keeper of my dreams

The man who holds my heart in his hands

The one I want to spend my life with

The one with whom I will always stand



Stand beside through thick and thin

Through all that life will throw our way

Knowing that this special love we share

Will guide us, each and every day



This journey was started long ago

Before this time and place

The journey of completeness

As two hearts and souls embrace



Forever is what I want with you

For the search is at an end

Our hearts have found each other

As lovers, as soul-mates, as friends.



As Long As You’re Near By Christy Smith



The first time we met, I could see,

That you and I, were meant to be.

Your eyes were so gentle, your smile so true,

When you first held my hand, I just knew.



Now the time has gone by, through laughter and tears,

These days I shall cherish, for years upon years.

Those memories we have, shall never fade,

For those are the steps, that we have made.



That was the past, the future is near,

I anxiously wait, for what will appear.

New homes, more laughter, and children so dear,

Everything will be wonderful, as long as you’re near.



Motionless By Kelley Saint



If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,

So you’d always hold me, close and near.

In your arms, where I’m meant to be,

Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.



A bond so strong, a hold so tight,

To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr. Right’.

A blessing sent from up above,

In you I’ve found my one true love.



Our lives entwined to be as one,

Upon this journey we’ve just begun.

Where you and I will find no less,

Than eternal love and happiness.

05.14.09:Can't Sleep.

Can't sleep. Not even tired. *sigh* Today my friend told this guy who liked me to ask me out, but I told her I didn't want to go out with anybody at the time cuz of another guy that got my heart shattered to pieces. I had to explain to her the whole story about this other guy, and it was so complicated. I hate talking about it. I hate thinking about it. Because everytime I think about it, my head hurts.Everytime I talk about it, my lips begin to tremble, and I start to cry. I love Paramore. And Shiny. (: Almost the end of the week huh? That's good. These last few weeks I have been in TOTAL STRESS-OUT MODE! essay after test after quiz after project after homework...ARRGHH!! anyways, we're starting poetry in english class, and i lovee poetry, so this is gonna be fun! softball for 75 minutes is NOT fun. but i caught a ball today(; hah hah tylerrrr!! yay. I'm really bad at softball now after not getting enough practice. i think i'll focus more on tennis than softball, volleyball & basketball. i think softball volleyball & basketball will just be my pastimes. i have no idea what i'm writing about, but i know i'm still awake, so that's kinda bad. aren't i so talented that i can keep typing and not know what i'm saying? yeah total talent. okay i think i'll stop now cuz my brain is like, shutting down. like a electricity. *peeewwwww* click! gnite! :D

05.10.09: Happy Birthday Sis! <3

Today is Sunday, May 10. Today is my bestest friend's birthday. Her name is Nica Cassandra De Jesus Monica Zulueta. Hehe. Quite a mouthful, yah? Today is also MOMMY'S DAY!! WOO HOO! give a hug or a kiss (or both!) to your mommies today! They are great people, even though you may not realize it (; My mom and I fight alot everyday, and it really takes a whoof outta me (does that even make sense?). My dad always reminds me that maybe God is trying to teach me and my mom something. Probably patience, he says. I think when I grow up , I'm gonna appreciate my mom better cuz, yennow, that's how life is. My brothers grew up without a mom, and I think that is completely horrible. They are missing a key part of their lives. There's just an empty void left in their heart that only their mother could have filled. She was never there while they were growing up, & my dad was a single parent. Now, my daddy's happy cuz he got remarried & he has a daughter (something he's always wanted Lmfao). But I can take quite a whoof outta him too. I shouldnt do this, I know, cuz it's disobeying God's commandment of honoring our parents, and cuz of my daddy's health issues. I`m much stronger & outspoken than I think he wanted his ideal daughter to be, but, he got his wish for a daughter, and that's all that counts, right? (: Happy Birthday Sis <3 ily ! =)

She stays up late listening to music that reminds her of him just so that she'll dream about him...

Wow. I finished reading Mountains Beyond Mountains. This is my 4th blog of the day, and I'm starting to get bored. Aren't you? ...You can just say it. 'Laurie, why are you still writing blogs then?' And my reply would be, 'Well cuz I want to b****.' I found a funny quote about that word:

Did you just call me a b****?
Well, a b**** is a female dog,
Dogs bark,
Barks are on trees,
Trees are a part of nature, &
Nature is beautiful.
So thanks for the compliment.

So next time, if you're about to call someone a b****, think about this.

THE QUOTES THAT MADE ME FEEL...COOL:
"I run with scissors cuz it makes me feel dangerous."
"I've got A.D.D. and magic markers. Oh the thrills I will have."
"Hey you. Yeah, you. No, not you...That other guy. You right there! Yes, you. Do you like tacos?"
:D Doesn't that give you a chilling tingle in your brain? Your brain says thankyou. It was on brainfart mode until they saw these quotes. Makes'em think yennow?

THE QUOTES THAT TOUCHED ME TODAY (not pedo-touched tho):
"Everything is such a blur. It didn't come out right. All of a sudden it's cold, and we're falling apart. No, this can't be. Please, don't leave me alone in the dark..." **I was gonna put this as my blog title, but stupid blogspot/blogger whatever won't let me. Too many letters. Pshh. Pure BS. (BaloneySandwich) >:/
"I miss screaming & fighting & kissing in the rain. It's 2 A.M. & I'm cursing your name. You're so in love that you act insane & that's the way I loved you. Breaking down & coming undone. It's a roller coaster kind of rush & I never knew I could feel that much & that's the way I loved you."

SOME RANDOM QUOTES I FELT LIKE PUTTING ON HERE:
"Maybe the truth is...we hide to see who will look for us. We cry to see who will wipe our tears away. And we get our hearts broken to see who will care enough to fix them again."
"For every broken heart, there's a guy standing there with a glue gun."
"You had your dreams; I had mine. You had your fears; I was fine. You showed me what I couldn't find. When two different worlds collide." - Two Worlds Collide by Demi Lovato

QUOTES THAT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL INTELLIGENT:
"Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you." -Christian D. Larson

"I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me. And I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve."

"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."

He gave her 12 roses; 11 real, and 1 fake, and said, "I'll love you until the last rose dies."

Today, while I was taking a break after playing tennis, I sat in the grass and began to daze off. I had a daydream of him & I, laying on the grass, talking about things that didn't really matter, but talked about because we were bored. Then we started to camerawhore. Haha. Holding his hand, feeling his arms around mine, my head on his chest, looking up at the sky. I feel so secure, although it was just a dream. I want to tell him so badly how I truly feel, but I'm afraid that I'll scare him away, and our friendship would be ruined. I don't want to lose such a close friend, but at the same time, I want us to be more than friends. Everytime I think about him, I get butterflies, and those butterflies sure do hurt the tummy. But I ignore that annoying twinge of the fluttering of the butterflies, because I am so hypnotized by his perfection; his acceptance of my imperfect self. I love how he can tell me anything, and that he trusts me so much. One of my fears is that other girls would be jealous if we ever went out or something. No matter how many times these silly quotes say that we shouldn't care what others think, it still does not suffice for the pain and suffering we would go through by our closest friends; the people we love and care for so dearly. I would be too afraid & too weak to be able to let him go, and I would suffer even more if he let me go, and that is another reason why I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with him. It's a lose-lose situation. That is the reason why I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with any boy, in the sense that my heart wouldn't be able to endure the pain.

That takes me back almost about a year ago, when I fell for somebody, very hard. It started out beautifully, perfectly, practically flawless. I believed he was the one for me. He boosted my self-confidence, he psychologically helped me during the numerous volleyball & basketball games during the seasons; he was my inspiration to do well (in athletics). I would suffer the wrath of my parents' anger just so I could go watch his basketball games, and I believed it was truly worth it, since I believed he was the one. Another incident about another boy who asked me out, and (not purposely) had youtube videos posted saying "i love you." he even gave me a valentines card in front of our whole grade. i began to cry, for a reason I am, even at this point in time, am not sure of. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to this much attention. This came as a shock to me, for I never thought he liked me. I just thought of us as friends. When he asked me out, I told him no. He asked me again, and I refused. Now I regret being so cold to him, and I ask him now if he'll forgive me, cuz I was foolish & immmature, and I didn't know I was playing & breaking somebody else's heart. I know how you feel now, being heartbroken, because getting back to the first boy, as I've stated, everything was perfect. We talked about absolutely everything. He was always busy with his basketball league tournaments that we only got to exchange messages on Myspace, have AIM convos at 3 or 4 in the morning, or just talk at school. So many memories (mostly the ones we got in trouble) were carved into my head and my heart, and it still resides in them today. It broke off after the summer, and I was literally stunned. I didn't feel like doing things anymore. I became depressed. Lethargic. Apathetic. I cried myself to sleep every night, listening to songs that would remind me of him and make me cry harder. I wonder if the second boy went through this torture that is covered by the name 'heartbreak.' I was also pretty foolish about this first boy, because for the decision of where I went to high school, (I had to choose between two perfectly good schools; I only applied to two, and got into both), I chose the school that he was going too, because I wasn't aware at the time that we wouldn't be talking to each other ever again. I believed that our friendship would flourish if we went to the same school, but apparently I was completely wrong. During our 1st graduation party, we hugged, but I didn't really take note of it because I knew we weren't saying goodbye yet. My friends kept trying to get me to dance with him, by pushing me towards him, but I kept refusing. I survived the night. At graduation, with all the flurry and yelling&screaming, and photo-taking, I didn't take note of this either. We took a picture together, and it was kinda embarassing cuz his mom came up and took a picture of us too -.- I took pics w/ everybody in our graduating class except 2 or 3 people. Sorry you 2 or 3 people. :( After graduation, we went bowling. I was so entertained that everyone that was wearing white was glowing cuz it was so dark. Must have been the lighting or something...Haha. Anyways, after the party, we hugged, and he said, 'See you at (the high school we go to now)!' I thought he meant that we would be friends and hanging out together. But of course, I was unaware again, that this would be the last time we would be talking as best friends. Currently, I am still depressed & quiet and not as outgoing as I used to be. We still go to the same school, our lockers are quite close to each other, but we never talk. We hang out w/ different groups of people now. He has a new girlfriend, and I've moved on with other guys. I'm pretty much over it, but there's something still deep in my heart, that just can't let him go, and I'm still stressing about it. I don't like really telling this story alot, cuz it makes me sad. I usually let out all this negative energy flow out through my ardent passion for art, listening to my 'post-love/heartbroken' music, && writing poems. The best poems that I write are inspired by him. All the other ones I write are empty & have no meaning. As I have learned, when you pour your heart out on something, it usually touches peoples' hearts. But I have also learned that if you pour out too much of your heart for somebody, you'll have nothing left to give to your future relationships. Now I feel I can never love to the extent as I did with him; he took 95% of my love, and now I can only give 5% to my future loves. Sorry future loves; blame him. I gave him control over my heart. And now everyone will have to pay for it.

She's too scared to get close to anyone because the everyone that said 'I'll be there' left.

Do you remember when it was fun to play with toys? When you begged your parents to let you stay up past midnight, even though you never made it? When you asked for dolls for Christmas, and clothes were the worst presents? When you'd get up early to watch cartoon? When the sports you did were actually fun? When you wanted to go to school? When boys had cooties and all the girls got along? When your mom had to take you everywhere with her? When 'shut-up' and 'crud' were bad words? When you had Barbie sheets and pillowcases? When gettting mail was the most exciting thing in the world? When you got to cross the street by yourself for the first time? When five dollars could buy anything? When you became best friends with someone just because you had the same favorite color? When you and your siblings used to fight, but nobody really got hurt? When you got to stay home alone for the first time, even though your parents were across the street? When answering the phone was fun, even if it wasn't for you? When you used to yell at people who called you a little kid? When everyone loved the teacher? When hanging out meant spending one hour together playing in your backyard? When boys were allowed in your room? When you actually fell asleep at sleepovers? When Britney Spears was cool to listen to? When you didn't hate taking the bus? When your parents were your friends, and not embarassing? When the biggest arguments you had with your friend was about which singer was the best? When your parents picked your clothes, and you honestly didn't care? When you just wanted to grow up? When nobody labeled each other, or judged each other, or had huge fights, or was sexist, or racist; when cliques weren't important, and people cared for one another; when people didn't spread rumors, and didn't tell lies, and stood up for their friends, and sincerely didn't care what other people thought? Do you remember when we were all happy?

Because sometimes you have to step outside the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you want to be. The person that you are.

Duh, I love you<3 And trying to explain why is like trying to explain how water tastes. Completely impossible(:

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the [past]...stop planning the [future]...stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel. Stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with, 'whatever happens, happens.'"

One day at a time is enough...don't look back & grieve the past, it's gone..don't be troubled about the future, it has not come yet...live in the present, & make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.

There are gifts of many treasures, for both the young and old, from the tiniest little trinkets, to great boxes filled with gold. But put them all together and they could not stand in lieu, of the greatest gift of all, the gift of knowing you. When your times are filled with troubles; sadness, grief, or even doubt, when all those things you planned on, just aren't turning out. Just turn and look behind you, from the place at which you stand, and look for me through the shadows, and reach out for my hand. I will lift from you your burden and cry for you your tears, bear the pain of all your sorrows, though it may be for a thousand years. For in the end I would be happy, to have helped you start anew; it's a small price to pay, for the gift of knowing you.

And when she's gone, remember, you once loved her, you once needed her, you once cared about her more than anything in the world. you can't deny she was ever there. you can't deny what you had. you can't deny that it ended over absolutely nothing. you can't deny, that regardless, you still think about it. no other girl could ever love you the way she did she does one day, you'll realize what you've done. you'll come back. and she'll be gone.

Sometimes we tend to be in despair, when the person we care about leaves. But the truth is it's not our loss, it's theirs. Because they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them.

I'm the kind of girl who will dance in the pouring rain, smile like im fine when I"m not. Make you laugh when you want to cry. Wory more about you than me. Fall over laughing at the dumbest things. Always forgive but never forget. Who loves so many and hates so few. When she's loved by so few and hated by so many...

There are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept.Things we don't want to know, but we have to learn. & people we can't live without but have to let go..='(

To the crazy nights that went by too fast, && the days you hoped would never end. All the [drama], fights, and boys. To all the things you shouldn't have said, and all the things you should have. The friends you made and the friends you lost. Not to mention that ironic story of you && him. x3 All the hugs and kisses you wanted to last forever...the things he did that you sat up all night talking && thinking about. Those girls that ran their mouth [because][they][were][all][jealous]. The pictures you never wanted to lose. Of the moments you never want to forget. Smile to yourself and think. This is my life, and I love it.

If I had a nickel everytime I met a boy like you, I'd have five cents.

Don't listen when people say he's not good enough for you because truly--you are the only one who knows how he makes you feel <3

Some choose to live in the past full of blame, hate & self-pity...carefully planning every detail of their future in complete fear & insecurity...Life; I have learned, is fate, hope, & karma...the only thing you can be sure of and believe in is yourself.

05.08.09: Have fun at Senior Prom, Seniors!

Today is Friday. I have a day off cuz of senior prom, as I mentioned yesterday. This morning, I woke up at 7:40am. I dont know why. Its something with my body or something. Well, I played some Mario Party on my DS and it took me 8 times to beat a boss. I'm usually not that addicted to video games anymore, but when I'm bored, I just like to press those buttons(; Well, I finally got out of bed at 9:20, washed up, and went downstairs, cuz I heard somebody downstairs. It was an old guy in our kitchen, fixing our sink. I didn't really want an old guy to be the first person I see in the morning. I sat down at the computer, checked my Facebook, and decided to go play tennis w/ my dad, who took the day off so mr. sink-fixer dude could...well, yennow, fix our sink. I really wasnt in the mood to play tennis, but I just played anyways, cuz I needed to get my exercise. I usually do 200 jumping jacks and 150 crunches/situps a day, but I guess since I have the day off, my dad told me to go play w/ him. It was so sunny, I couldnt even see. Why is it so sunny at 10 in the morning? Anyways, played for an hour, came home, and sat there for 15 minutes deciding what to have for lunch. Decided to have ramen & sushi. Yum(= Well, I'm working on my English, and I have to prepare for an essay, write a letter to a corporation about marine pollution, and finish reading Mountains Beyond Mountains. Ugh. Only 3 more chapters. I really dislike biographies. I'm more of a fiction person. So, yeah, as always I'm procrastinating. I'm also reading this printout my mom printed about becoming a marine biologist. I'm really interested in becoming one. Bye-bye my ideal career as a lawyer. As Chip says, "How can you be a lawyer? You barely talk during class debates/discussions." And my brother's studying to be a criminal justice prosecutor, and he studies 24/7, and he just got pneumonia without even knowing it. No thankyou, lawyerstudying. I really care for animals, and I sorta wanna put this in my letter to the corporation, that I care about marine pollution because I care about animals, and my most favorite place in the world is the beach, because its my thinking place, and my thinking is interrupted by all the debris that washes up on shore, and the dirtiness of the ocean and the beach because of marine pollution. I mean like, what if marine pollution wipes out all the animals? Then the future generations won't be able to appreciate & experience the beauty of marine animals and marine life. Anyways, that's what I'm procrastinating on, so more quotes! Whoopee!! =D

"It's the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you everything & nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go & you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want him in your life so bad, but all you can do is push him farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back on how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same."

"What's Minnie without Mickey, What's Tigger without Pooh, What's Patrick without Spongebob, What's Me without You <3"

"When life knocks you down to your knees, just remember that you are in the perfect position to pray."

"Life is like a rough draft of an English paper you are doing the night before it's due. It has some great parts to it and it is full of great ideas but it isn't quite put together. It's ripped at the edges from where it was stuffed in a backpack and has many pen marks where you wanted what you wrote to be erased but it was already written in pen. It is also full of sentences that are worth every single mistake you could ever make. Great memories and stupid mistakes are just a part of it. It has some rough patches. Sometimes you really just want to stop writing, but you can't, because this matters just as much now as it will later on. The more you write and the more you think, the better this paper gets. You realize how great it is and even if you don't get an A+ you know that this is worth it, it is all worth it. The scratched out marks are realization of what can be better in the future and you have learned from everyone. So keep writing, because when you are handing your paper in, you don't want it to be half done and full of things that were just okay and could be better. When you read over your work you want to say it was the best you could have done."

"Living life means not looking back to things you'd rather forget...Life means looking forward to a future that you'd rather not have...Life is not forgetting the people who touched your heart...Life is living the way that you want to...LIFE MEANS GETTING YOUR HEART BROKEN...Life means trying to fix it yourself...Life means trying to move on...Life means waiting for that special someone...Life means dying...BUT NOT UNTIL YOU'VE FOUND THEM."

"I want to be his last call of the night, his first thought in the morning; five hour conversations, the ones with "no, you hang up first", him to make my heart race, give me sweaty palms, hugs that you never want to let go of, but most of all, I want to be considered his."

"I know it's hard for us to be together but I do understand it's harder to live without one another. I just wan to let you know that even though we cannot be together we will never ever be apart because the love that I have for you will always grow stronger, as long as I live."

"When I first met you, I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you; I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When I first met you I never would've thought that I would love you."

"Cuz if you only knew what i felt for you, you would have held on tighter, fought a little harder, been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love."

"Tell her how you admire her. Always tell her you love her at all times. When she's upset hold her tight. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair. Pick her up, tickle her, and wrestle with her. Just talk to her. Tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Throw pebbles at her window at night. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Sing to her no matter how awful you sound. Get her mad at you. Then kiss her. Give her piggyback rides. Push her on the swings. Tell her she looks beautiful. When she's sad, stay on the phone with her, even if she's not saying anything. Look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead. Slow dance with her even if there's no music. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her...tell her."

"Love is when you find someone you can really be yourself with and that you can share anything with. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that person. When words don't even come close to how you really feel and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know you were meant to be together. <3<3<3"

"Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life."

"Once upon a time...I knew who I was. Scars are souvenirs you never loose. I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me. If annoyed any further, I shall spork your eyes out. I don't want to admit it: It was easier to lie, to hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry."

"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit, Or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me<3"

"The greatest challenge in life is: to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes, yet still loves everything about you."

"I'm speechless, stunned, with nothing to say. I never knew you'd speak all of this today. Your words were too strong, that they made me weak. It was very deep, my eyes almost leaked. I'm so worked up and so stressed out, you're the boy who helps me out, I'm happy that I know you're here for me, but you say you love me, how can this be? They are such strong words, that run in my head, if I ever lost love, I'd rather be dead. I want to be yours, but I'm scared this could end, and then we'd eventually stop being friends. You're too much to lose, so I'll grab you tight, and hopefully we'll start up something tonight. Do I love you? We already discussed. It's a no, but you're more than a crush. Baby, grab my hand and enter my land, because I want you to know me better and understand. I'm confusing, weird, and crazy inside, so our relationship will be a dizzy ride. So why is it so hard for you to ask? Telling me how you feel didn't seem a hard task. So open your mouth and move those lips. Tell me you want me and put your hand around my hips. My answer is obvious, I'm so starstruck, No, not by your looks, but time's running out. Don't ever leave me, please don't hurt, I never wanna find another guy to flirt."

"I guessed wrong but I assumed it be true, that love came from the heart, pulling us together but never apart, starting the beginning of me and you. A mistake I thought that I could have never made, though it was real and not a game, keeping my hopes up and keeping them strong, only to fall and never belong."

"I hope you know how much you mean to me. I hope you know how much I care. I try so hard to make you smile. I always say, "You've got great hair!" I want to be so much to you. I want to hear you say,"I love you" more and more each day. Don't ever go away!"

"Never say 'I love you' if you don't really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if you're gonna break my heart. Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start. Never look into my eyes, if all you do is lie. Never say hi if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever. Then say you will try. Never say forever, cuz forever makes me cry."

Procrastinating(: Peace Out, Girl Scout.

Today I have a ton of homework for the weekend, but I finished more than half of it in 3 hours, so I think I deserve to take a break. But of course, that will never happen, so I will call this 'procrastinating.'

"There is an inner beauty about a woman who believe in herself; who knows she's capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength & determination of a woman that follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, & move on."

"I tried so hard not to fall for you, I tried to keep my head above the water, but I went down so hard in the end, I fell so deep that I am still drowning, with no way back to the surface, it's killing me; all of this, and I can't let it go, I never wanted it to end, but you did, you did it with such force, I felt my heart break in to more than just pieces, it shattered completely into dust, I feel like I can never fall that deep again because of you, but I know someday in the distant future, when I know your heart does the same, I know that day I will be happy again."

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wondeful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best times of my life."

"I don't forgive people because I'm weak; I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know people make mistakes."

"Her favorite song will say more about her than her mouth ever will." :)

"Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."

"Just because you see no tears doesn't mean I have no fears, && just because I come off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong."

"Please don't tell me not to cry. Please don't say there was a reason why. You don't know what I am feeling. Or how much I hurt. The wet spots are from tears on the collar of this shirt. You think I should go on with life. Forget about it and be strong. But deep down I am sad, and I don't want to go along. I don't expect you to understand why. For no apparent reason I break down and start to cry. My life has changed forever, you see. And that is why I am not acting like the same old me. So please don't try to act like noting happened. Because it's changed my life forever. I will never be the same again. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever. The best thing you can do for me is just be there. Just like always, my friend. My broken heart is hurting bad, and it will never mend."

"You came into my life as an unwelcome face, not ever knowing our friendship, I would one day embrace. As I wonder through my thoughts and memories of you, it brings many big smiles and laughter so true. I love the special bond that we beautifully share, I love the way you show you really care, Our friendship means the absolute world to me, I only hope this is something I can make you see. Thank you for opening your mind and your soul, I will do all I can to help heal your heart's little holes. Remember, your secrets are forever safe within me, I will keep them under the tighest lock and key. Always remember...if you're ever in need, I will try to be, the best friend I can possibly be. Thank you for trusting me right from the start. You truly have got a wonderful heart. I am now so happy I felt that embrace, for now I see the beauty of my best friend's face..."

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. you can't live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me...you brought another friend...and then there were three...we started our group....our circle of friends...and like that circle...there is no beginning or end...yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it the present."

Fallen Angel;; This angel may have a broken soul but she still has the strength to watch over those he loves. Take heed...this house is protected by an angel...My Fallen Angel;;Ascend to light, descend to dark. They say it's all over now, but it's just begun...each time something's complete, something else is yet to be done. I can't take this much longer, always struggling for survival...always hiding in the darkness...so restless is my shattered soul, it will suffocate me 'til death...rise again from the grave, ascend tot eh ligh, and fall again. Forever, my fallen angel. Dispair;; When darkness clouds the light, when the wind howls in the dead of night, let the whispers fill your ears, with the howling screams of your worst fears. The sight of the crows that caw with hate, almost as bone chilling as the mandrake. Seeing tears in the eyes of a pale woman, over your head lies an evil omen! Why would you bring such sorrow and dispair? Perhaps the fact that no ones cares...Fall to your knees and close your eyes; Drop to the ground and let yourself die..."

"Well, it's no secret that the best thing about secrets is secretly telling someone your secret, thereby adding another secret to your secret collection of secrets, secretly." -Spongebob Squarepants ;)

"You can't tell someone you love them, and then change your mind; that's not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them don't you? Isn't there always a part of you that thinks of them for no reason? They'll always be in the back of your mind and no matter how much you love someone else you will always love him too."

"Meeting you was fate. Becoming your friend was a choice. But falling in love with you was beyond my control."

"Every long lost dream led me to where you are. Others who broke my heart. They were like north stars, pointing me on my way, into your loving arms. God blessed the broken road, that led me straight to you."

05.07.09 : Where are the Girl Scouts?

Today's like a Friday! Senior Prom's tomorrow, so everybody gets the day off! =D Well, it hadn't dawned on me that today was like our Friday, cuz I was stressin` over the math test. I was so nervous and unprepared. I got tutored for 2 hours, and studied by myself for 3, and I STILL wasn't ready! It sucked. As I thought, the math test was uber hard. I didn't even finish the test! I asked Margaret, Tyler, Evan, Abby and other people if they finished the test, and they said no. So I don't know what's wrong w/ Mr. Cosmos & his teaching, but seriously, if we don't get it, he didn't really do his job. Everyone in Mr. Cosmos' Block 5 class started making everyone else in the other blocks panic about the test. Stupid circles, ellipses, parabolas, and hyperbolas! Freakin` vertex, focus, directrix,axis of symmetry, horizontal & vertical COW POOP! Anyways, after moping for awhile, I felt better in scripture cuz I was playing with Charlotte's windable car eraser. IT WAS SO COOL!! haha. but it kept going sideways. Retarded car. P.E. we started softball. I only hit 2 balls of the 10 balls pitched to me. YESS IM BALLIN`! ;D that's like...20% right? lunch was nice. talking to licia. i paid for her & my lunch, and after I ran out of dollar bills, I started throwing out quarters, and the lunch lady started to get mad and was like NEXT TIME BE PREPARED W/ YOUR MONEY!! im like .....uhhmm...okay. =/ History we watched "Kingdom of Heaven." ORLANDO BLOOM<3 haha mr. wilson has a mancrush on him. LOLOLOLOLLOL. English: pray for Fleurette's ankle. She sprained it =( Poor Fleurette. Martin kept stealing my tic-tacs. >;/ Throughout the day, I had a craving for Samoas, PeanutButter Patties, && Thin Mints. Where are the freakin` Girl Scouts when you need them?? Lalala. OkieDoke. Byee!

Dear Tummy, Sorry About All The Butterflies Lately, But It's Not My Fault, It's His...

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it."

"Listen to her secrets. Take her out to dinner. Call her first. Label her as yours. Understand her feelings. Tell her she's gorgeous. Write her a song. Talk to her like a human being. Ask her to dance with you. Never imagine life without her. Kiss her in the rain. Hold her hand at anytime. Pass her love letters. Never forget her birthday. Tell her she's always right, even when she's not. Be her escape. Tell her you believe in her. give her gummy worms. Remember her favorite colors. Hold her books for her in school. Give her hugs and kisses. Show her off to your friends. Hold her hand, just because. Treat her like a star. Dream about her. Tell her she super nifty. Say she has the key to your heart. Watch her walk home--to make sure she's safe. Play her favorite game. Have a song that reminds you of her. Kiss her on the forehead. Dance together like retards. Stay together forever. Let the love last."

"Beauty isn't seen through the makeup brushes or hair products...beauty is seen by those who choose not to see imperfections, and by those whom you love and those who love you. Everyone is beautiful, but some people choose to hate on others for things they don't like. Forget about those who make your days miserable, and live for those who make your life beautiful."

"What do you do when the one who broke your heart is the only one who can fix it?"


"Don't cry over someone that won't cry over you."
"He whispered 'I love you' & she believed him...that was her biggest mistake."
"I feel sorry for any man who broke my heart because one day they're gonna wake up & realize they had the world."
"Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that's hard."
"No man is worth your tears and the one that is won't ever make you cry."
"Never make someone your everything because when they leave, you'll have nothing."
"I used to believe that love existed but when you've had your heart torn out and thrown on the floor you just don't care anymore."

"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he loves another but you still smile and say, 'I'm happy for you.' When all you really do is cry...and cry."


"How do you know when he really loves you? When you scream and he's calm, when you hit him and he kisses you, when you cry and he cries too, when you tell him you hate him & he tells you he loves you<3"

"There's something in a simple hug. That always warms the heart; it welcomes us back home, and makes it easier to part. A hug's a way to share the joy and sad times we go through, or just a way for friends to say, they like you cuz you're you. Hugs are meant for anyone, for whom we really care. From your grandma to your neighbor, or a cuddly teddy bear. A hug is an amazing thing, it's just eh perfect way, to show the love we're feeling, but can't find the words to say. It's funny how a little hug, makes everyone feel good; in every place and language, it's always understood. ANd hugs don't need equipment, special batteries or parts--just open up your arms, and open up your hearts."

"My heart's been shattered into many little shreds. Each one represented a time from the past. But they stopped in their tracks and failed to spread, memories that wanted to stay but they didn't last. My body's weak from crying so much, it's aching from every move I make. I wish I could just feel your touch, and bring us back from this tragic break. I don't understand the words you say, I want to believe them but I can't. I need to hear them day by day, making a wish and keeping my way. It hurts more than ever to be apart, not being together is so tough, you're ripping the insides of my heart, and burning them making it rough."

"I am all that I believe. There is nothing that I cannot achieve. My strength is an anchor for me. Even when emotion is adrift at sea. I hear what you say. But I decide how to live out my day. No mind can shape my thinking. I move through life without even blinking. I am all that I believe. Reality is what I conceive. My spirit is that of steel. My essence is so genteel. Endless love comes from my heart. It is the wisdom of life that imparts. My thoughts have no one's control. It is reality that comes from my soul. I am all that I believe. The love in my heart will never leave. Each new day has it feel. This is because I am REAL."

"I don't want him to be perfect. I want him to laugh at me, trip me, && help me up...pick me up and then throw me in the pool. Make me watch football for hours, and take me to the arcade and beat me in air hockey. Most of all, I just want to be glad that he loves me."

"I want someone who won't care that I'm incapable of sitting still. That I can't grasp the concept of cleaning. And I refuse to be ladylike. Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make are usually ones I regret. And I have the tendency to overreact at any given moment. I want someone who knows how completely insane I am && he wouldn't want me any other way."

"I thought about you when all I knew was your name. I loved you even when I knew about your game. I cared for you. Even though all you caused me was pain. I knew you would never love me the same way I loved you. But I still let you play me for a fool. You lost a good thing. I'm constantly thinking about how we used to be. I think about you everyday. But what can I say? Our love just wasn't meant to be. But if I had a chance to go back in time. I wouldn't change a thing. Because the last laugh is mine. I'm sorry but you didn't fool me this time."

"Fine I admit it;; I think of you every second of every day, you're my favorite subject to talk about. When I huge you, I wish I could never let go. Most of all my dreams have you in them. I always get excited when I see you again. && I'm completely in love with you."

"If one day you want to cry, just call me. I can't promise I'll make you laugh, but I can cry with you. If one day you want to run away, just call me. I can't promise I'll make you stop, but I can run with you. If one day you are bored, just call me. I can't promise I'll entertain you, but I can tell you I am bored too. But if one day you tell me you love me, I promise I will tell you I love you too."

"I want to love, & be loved back, but it's the courage to feel, that I lack. I don't want to get hurt, don't want to cry, don't want to spend everyday wishing I'd die. I want to fall in love..but I don't wanna get hurt. I don't want to go crazy over such a little flirt. I don't wanna get too close, because it'd hurt too much."

"I'll be there for you. If you've got secrets you want to tell, we can talk all day long. If your dreams get broken somehow, I"ll remind you that you belong. If you need someplace to hide, you can hold my hand for a while. If your sky begins to fall, I'll stay with you til you smile. Whenever you need some space, there's my room--you can take it. If someone breaks your heart, together we'll unbreak it. When you feel sad or empty inside, I'll show you you're not alone. If you get lost out there, I'll come and take you home. I'll go with you somewhere else, when you need to get away. And when nothing seems to be going right and you need a friend...I'll stay."

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there's no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination."

Very truee.

LOVE: We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it && Loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define && IMPOSSIBLE to live without.

Agree or disagree? That is my question to you. Lol. Too much Shakespeare @ school. Haha.

Yahoo! =P

"she smashed the rearview mirror of her car with her fist because starting today she's never looking back."

"got a problem with me? solve it! think i'm trippin'? tie my shoes! can't stand me? sit the fuck down! can't face me? turn the fuck around!"

"love: a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise, and lips to pucker."

"so it's not going to be easy. it's going to be really hard. and we're going to have to work at this every day. but i want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, forever, every day."

"life's a bitch. cuz if it was a slut, it'd be easy."

"i may not get to see you as often as i like, i may not get to hold you in my arms thru the night, but deep in my heart i truly know, you're the only one that i love, and i can't let you go!!" *mr.jaguarr* rawr. ;)

"you and i can never be just friends. there is always that feeling deep down there just waiting o come out. only problem is when it's going to come and when it does. it's either going to light a fire or blow one out." *dedicated to ryan , im so sorry our fire blew out. it's all my fault. )= after 10 months, i still can't stop thinking about you, and i just can't get over you, and i don't know why...*

"i dont know where i stand with you, and i don't know what i mean to you, all i know is everytime i think of you...all i wanna do is be with you."

"beauty is found in the heart not in the eyes of some jealous bitch. so when you say i'm ugly...i'll laugh my cute laugh, smile, and say these simple words: 'dont hate me cuz you aint me!" (=

God knew our mothers couldn't handle us as sisters, so He made us best friends.

"Maybe my heart didn't really skip a beat, and maybe the twinkle in your eye was just the sun reflecting weird, and maybe the feeling in my stomach was just not having enough for breakfast, and maybe I just thought it was love."

"So what hurts more? Thinking you should hate him or knowing that you don't?"

"Your Best Friend: is someone you can trust with your heart, who never dates a guy you like, && doesn't say 'you look cute today' she says, 'Girl, you lookin' so fine that I'd tap that and possibly bang it too!' she also makes your day the best it ever could and if you fall in the hall, she says, ' walk much? ' she may sound like a bitch. but hey, she's your best friend.

"Best Friends: understand when you say forget it, wait forever when you say just a minute, stay by your side when you say leave me alone,&& listen for hours when you're crying on the phone. it's those times we go so crazy;; people think we're high, the times we make each other laugh, until we start to cry all the inside jokes and 'remember whens' , those are the reasons they call us best friends; scratch that, sisters.

"I am nowhere near perfect, I eat when I'm bored, I fall for boys too easily, I'm vulnerable to believing lies, I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile, I live by quotes that explain exactly what I am going through, I make up excuses for everything, I have best friends and enemies, I have drama and memories, I am an average teenager: ( and thats life.) live it, love it..learn from it.

"I'm always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. My favorite songs can make me cry. I always watch for 11:11, but I miss it more than I notice it. I live in the past, in the memories I have with the people I love. I hate thinking about reality& I`m so homesick that it's not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way..maybe it`s more like heartsick for all the things that I can't get back. It's hard for me to define myself..I guess I`m just a cliche--the girl who loved too hard and didn`t get anything in return. I don't want to be the heroine in some tragic love story, I just want the one person who has never given me a second thought."

"Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money. Tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off. Speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, smile until your face hurts, don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love...& most of all, live in the moment `cause when you look back someday knowing you have no regrets it's going to be what makes your life worthwhile."

"You aren't going to be his first, his last or his only..he's loved before, he will again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? he's not prince charming, you aren't cinderella, and reality is rarely a fairytale. but if he can make you laugh at least once, cauz you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He is not going to quote poetry, he's not going to be thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. don't hurt him. dont change him. don't expect more then he can give. try not to over-analyze situations. smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. i love you<3" *i sorta improvised on the prince & cinderella part*

"So there's this boy and the way he laugh makes me smile, and the way he takls gives me butterflies, && just everything about him makes me happy."

"So there's this boy--and he is 100% amazing in every way. Everytime I see him I fall even more in love with him. At the randomest times I find myself going on and on about him. My heart stops whenever I see him.<3"

more than you can ever imagine...

" I want a Notebook romance, a love like Corey and Topanga, and a story like A Walk To Remember. And I want it to be with him." (Remember Corey&Topanga from Boy Meets World? Hella old show)

I told you, "I like you." You smiled and said, "I don't." I told you, "I care for you." You smiled and said, "I don't." I told you, "I love you." You smiled and said, "I don't." I told you, "I wasn't kidding" You smiled and said, "I was."

"If loving you is wrong then I don't want to be right."

"There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they did't make it to your future." *That last line makes me think of him, and everytime I see that quote, I go, "Nuh-uh. I'm not believing that shit. I still believe in him." Do you think it's wrong to think this way? Is this what's hindering me from forgetting him?

Girl: Do you like me? Boy: No. Girl: What? I mean...why not? Boy: Think about it for a sec. Girl: So there's another girl? Boy: No baby, I love you(:

"I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. Remember I'd always love you baby, you are the one who holds my heart." hehe ily(;

A woman once said that a man is like a deck of playing cards...you need: A Heart to love him; A Diamond to marry him, A Club to smash his fucking head in, and A Spade to bury the bastard.

" I am kind of crazy, head over heels, leaving me breathless, absolutely butterflies in the stomach, 110% in [ l o v e ] with you."

"The only people you need in your life are the ones who need you in theirs."

" If I could tell you one thing, I guess it would be that i love hearing your voice and that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day." ~hehe.

"I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place & I spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy & sometimes I have a broken heart. My friends & I sometimes fight & maybe some days nothign goes right. But when I think about it & take a step back I remember how amazing life truly is & that maybe. Just maybe. I like being unperfect."

" Cinderella walked on broken glass, Sleeping Beauty let a lifetime pass, Belle fell in love with a hideous beast, Snow White had to cook a seven-man feast, Jasmine chose a poor man, Ariel spent her life on land. It's all about the smiles and tears; love is about facing your biggest fears." (I made up the Snow White one cuz on the original, nothing was between Belle & Jasmine).

"Don't sweat the petty things and don't pet the sweaty things!" xD

"Best friends are hard to find, because the very best one is already mine(="

"I wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear && cuddles up next to me when its cold, he'll be th eone who comes up beind me, wraps his arms around my waist, catches me off guard && whispers, ' you look beautiful."

And the last one:

"For once in my life, I don't have to try to be happy when I'm with you; it just happens." iHeartYouMucho.MoreThanYouThink.

Getting better n` better!

"&& if one day you realize I haven't talked to you in awhile, just remember;; you pushed me away." **To Him.

"I wish I could have quit you. I wish I never missed you, and told you that i loved you, every time I fucked you. The future that we both drew, and all the shit we've been through, obssessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew. how could you do this to me? Look at what I made for you. It was never enough and the world is what I gave you. I used to be love struck, now I'm just fucked up." **ToHim.Again.

Women's Comebacks To Pick-Up Lines

Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Woman: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore.

Man: Is this seat empty?
Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

Man: Your place or mine?
Woman: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine.

Man: So what do you do for a living?
Woman: I'm a female impersonator.

Man: Hey baby, what's your sign?
Woman: Do not enter.

Man: How do you like your eggs in the morning?
Woman: Unfertilized.

Man: Your body is like a temple.
Woman: Sorry, there are no services today.

Man: I would go to the end of the world for you.
Woman: But would you stay there?

Man: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
Woman: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

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"Sometimes you just have to stop caring. You hav eto turn off all emotion and feeling to protect yourself from getting hurt. You have to stop caring what other people think of you and be yourself. Sometimes you have to hide it all, not let anyone know how you feel or what you think. You have to put a smile on and pretend everything is fine, even when it's not. Sometimes that's the only way to save yourself from A Broken Heart"

"A Broken Heart:: I've never felt so sad. Ever since you broke my heart. I only wish you could see me now. So broken and apart. Everywhere I go. Everyone I see. Reminds me of you && me. And what we used to be. That's what I have... [ [ A broken heart ] ] **ToHim.Forthe3rdtime.Begeezers.

"Someone asked me if I missed you. I didn't answer. I just closed my eyes and waked away. And then I whispered: so much." *teardrop*

"I hide a broken heart behind a laughign face. & even though I said I'm over you, no one will ever take your place."

"do. you. remember. when:: getting high meant swinging on the playground...the worst thing boys could do to you was to give you cooties! mom was your hero & you were marrying daddy...wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut && war was just a card game. only skinned knees hurt and only toys were broken. we only smoked bike tires...&& life was so carefree . it's crazy thinking back on all of this, and how I had always wanted to just. grow. up."

"I cried today, not because I miss you or even wanted you, but because I finally realized I'm gonna be alright without you."

"I'm not crying over what you said; it's what you didn't say that hurts the most." **ToThePersonIamIgnoringForTheTimeBeing.

"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."

"i don't ask for much cuz with you i have everything i need"

"I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken. and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own."

"I'm trying not to love you.
I'm trying not to care.
I'm trying not to live my life
Wishing you were there.
I'm trying not to wonder
Where you are or what you do
I'm sorry I can't help myself
I fell in love with you." <--This is my faaave(:

Haha aww<3

"Love is when you miss him even before he leaves, when you could listen to him talk all nite && never get tired of hearin` his voice, when the sound of his name sends chills down your spine & you see his smile the second you close your eyes."

This is how I truly feel. People who have been loved, and do love, wouldn't you agree? <3 ;) Isn't it weird yet strangely calming to realize other people feel the same way you do, when you thought only you went through these things? It's very comforting to know everyone has been in love, through heartbreaks, and all tha crazy stuff that comes with love.

Ahh. More quotes. Getting bored yet?

"One day your life is going to flash right before your eyes, so make it worth watching."

"People that judge & label others are the same ones who haven't made it out of their insecurity box yet."

"God doesn't give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need. to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

"I am strong because I am weak, I am beautiful because I know my flaws, I am a lover because I'm a fighter, I am fearless because I have been afraid, I am wise, because I have been foolish, and I can laugh because I've known sadness."

"No matter where life takes you--big cities, small towns--you will inevitably run across small minds. People who think they are better than you, people who think that being pretty or popular automatically makes you a worthwhile human. None of these things matter as long as you have a strength of character, integrity, and a sense of pride."

"If you dont like something, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it."

"She's got a smile on her face and a fuck you attitude because from this day on she's living life for herself."

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on teh floor adn move the fuck on." -Tupac

"People hold onto something because they fear nothing that great will ever happpen again."

"So go ahead. Talk trash to me & about me. Act like you know everything, & can point a finger at anyone. Interfere in people's lives, but I have some advice: Look in the mirror, click your heels together, and say, "I NEED A LIFE."

More Quotes!! =D

" In this day and time. THe right one is hard to find. Boy, that's hwy I'm holding on to you. Each and every night. When we turn out the light. THere's no mistaking what we have is true." (THIS MADE NO SENSE WHATSOEVER)

"Black wings lay flat upon her back. A halo bent in half; losing its glow. Her voice a harsh whisper. Chained and guarded by the devil. Heart beating slower as they depart longer. Her eyes a puffy white ball. Laying dead upon a thunder cloud. Tears rolling down her face. Screams being heard through her ears. A rose lay upon her chest; losing its petals. Leaves falling down to the wet grounds below. The moon cast a shadow upon her face. All broken because of a fallen heart." (HOW DARK & EVILISH.)

" Cuz like you said, this is it. This is life. And I'm in love with you...I think that's the onl thing I've ever really been sure of in mmy entire life. And I'm really messed up right now, and I go ta whole lot of stuff I have to work out, but I don't want to waste any more of my life without you in it. And I think I can do this. I mean, I want to. I have to, right?" -From the movie, Garden State

"go to sleep and close your eyes and dream of broken butterflies. that tore their wings against a thorn you know the pain that they have endured. silver metal shine so bright, scarlet blood that feels so right. dream of that blood dripping down and wake up. just before you drown the moonlight shining on your tears. as you bleed out your worst fears so tonight when you start to cry. whisper the cutters' lullaby. hushaby baby youre almost dead. you don't have a pulse and your pillow is red. your family hates you, your friends let you bleed. sleep tight with a knife because its all taht you need. hushaby baby broken and scarred, you didn't know that life would be this hard. time to end the pain you hid so well and down you'll come baby straight back to hell. so the thigns you say wont matter any more. those tears you cried are forgotten. your life on earth is gone. no one even remembers your name. they thought the way you felt was all a game. and now you know where you belong i think i'll do the same." (SCARY & EMOOOOO)

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you have decided to look beyond the imperfections."

"Maybe it's the way you say my name or the way i get everytime we talk or the way you make me laugh when nothing's funny. whatever it is. i'm never letting go of it."

"I wanna be teh girl he's scared to lose. the one where he can't walk away from knowing she's mad at him. the one who can't fall asleep without her voice being the last oen he hears. the one he can't live without." (AWWW<3)

THE LAST QUOTE OF THIS BLOG & MY FAAVE:

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars; points of light and reason. Then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly, everything was on fire, there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore, and there was no more reason for anything."

Quotes! =D

"Here's to the CRAZY ones. The misfits. The rebels. The so-called trouble-makers. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, I see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."

"I was stung by cupid's arrow. But it was merely the devil's fork in disguise. Striking a never ending love to the one closest to my heart, Only keeping it locked til forever dies. A spell put upon me was nothing real at all, Wasn't true love to begin with. The only love that I feel, comes within the heart."

"To be a poet is to have a soul so quick to discern, that no shade of quality escapes it, and so quick to feel, that discernment is but a hand playing with finely ordered variety on the chords of emotion--a soul in which knowledge passes instantaneously into feeling, and feeling flashes back as a new organ of knowledge. One may have that condition by fits only." -George Eliot

"Maybe the truth is when she's silent. She wants you to talk to her. WHen she cries she wants you to wipe away her tears & when her heart is broken, she's waiting for you to fix it<3"

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be: white dress,prince charming, who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy.Prince Charming. They were so close to you could taste them. But eventually you grew up. One day, you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cuz almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope. of faith. that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." **To me, that didn't really make any sense**

"I'll count the days until I'm in your arms again. I miss you so much, your voice, your touch, but most of all, I miss how I felt when you hugged me.His arms wrapped around her waist, her arms wrapped around his neck, their eyes staring back at each other. A sign of young love.Let's go dancing & fall in love...& break each others' hearts with a TRAGIC GOODBYE. & then tomorrow we can do it all again. It started out like any other summer. Every single joy & fear, that's how we found each other. If I could do anything it would be to [kiss] you in the middle of the street on the rainiest day of the year.Show me love the way it's supposed to be. Lock me in your h.e.a.r.t. & throw away the key...last night i fell asleep to a song that reminded me of you on repeat.. Every moment. Every word. Everytime it played, there wasn't a minute i couldn't keep my mind off you. that's means something...right?"

"I wanna run away to the dark cold woods. And to scream at the top of my lungs. Hide away forever and never appear again, release all my fears to the gods above. Hide under a rock and never come out. Stay away from those who could hurt me so. Blessing my soul with the softness of air. Wishing I could just bring you back to my life. Confusion's building up in my brain. Mixing words and actions together. A muffled reply but it's the devil himself. Bringing me down to the grounds below. I feel I must stray into the moonlight's shadow. And never return back home. No one would be there to wait for me. Not even a love that I once lost."

"Written with a pen, sealed with a kiss, if you are my friend, please answer me this: are we friends, or are we not? You told me once, but i forgot. So tell me now, and tell me true, so i can say "i'm here for you." of all the friends I've ever met, you're the one I won't forget. and if i die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you, I'll give the angels back their wings, and risk the loss of everything. there isn't a thing i wouldn't do, to have a friend just like you!"

"Misplaced in a world of shame, lost in a world to blame. Words of wisdom no longer the same, emotions rolling to be untamed. Lost upon the crowd that lingers in a whole, hearts being broken that were once stoled. Betrayed by demons and taken under control, left alone and buried in a hole."

"It's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. It's funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It's funny how forever never seems to really last. It's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past. It's funny how "friends" can just leave you when you're down. It's funny how when you need someone they're never around. It's funny how people change and think they're so much better. It's funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter." It's funny how one night can contain so much regret. It's funny how ironic life turns out to be. but the funniest part of all, is that none of that is funny to me."