We've been best friends since birth (BFSB). No joke. Since we were a few months old probably :) & we're only 22 days apart. We were only supposed to be 10 days apart, but she was born 3 weeks early and I was born 2 days early. :) We both have brothers named Michael and cousins named Katie Lee. HAHA. Since the 2nd grade we've always wanted to be sisters. She's been to my every birthday party, and vice versa. She comes over to my house so often she knows where practically everything is. True, we've had our rough patches, but not as much as many people I guess. Cus we don't always have the same interests in things, we're too lazy to clash about it if it's not super important, & we easily forget about when we do argue. Except things like Taylor Lautner and Justin Bieber. Actually, she's more into Justin Bieber than I am. Haha. We went to preschool, kindergarten, grade school and part of middle school together and we still see each other every week. Our high schools are just a 15-20 minute walk apart. But even so, I still miss her and her talkative craziness throughout the week. It's kinda funny how we're best friends and we're total opposites. She talks nonstop, and I'm always the quiet and shy one. She plays volleyball and basketball and I play tennis ( Actually, I don't know how that's opposite). & She doesn't take it personally when I correct her spelling or her grammar. She knows I'm an English whore. Haha. I love English and History. She loves Math and History. Weird, huh? Usually it's either English&History or Math&Science.Haha my little misfit. :) I used to tease her about her 5th grade basketball number 00. ZEROS INTO HEROES, MAANG! Lol. I'm just stupid numbers like 32, 34, etc. She's a pointguard, I'm a shooting guard. She's a libero/outside hitter and I'm a settter (Volleyball). I remember times when we were younger and I tried to copy her ant-size handwriting and she tried to copy how I draw. =) After awhile, we were getting castigated for it, so we eventually stopped and were just our own person again. Haha, sounds pretty weird huh? Well, we do have a weird friendship, but that's what makes it special. She accepts me for who I am, and tells me I look pretty even when I feel fat. Not just that, but when I act weird, or I act very isolated, she still calls me her best friend. She's so skinny, like a stick. But she eats like a fat person. ( She acknowledges that.) I would consider that a compliment. teehee =) Well, anyways, hearing her say that I'm her best friend keeps me content with life. Many friends at school or GUYS will pass by in our lives, but we will stick together forever :) Oh gosh, her and her boy problems. Haha. She tells me she can't believe how easily I can stay out of boy drama. Or just drama in general. I just tell her I don't talk behind anyone's back cus obviously it's gonna come back and bite me in the butt later. & I do have boy dilemmas, I just don't fret about it in public like most of my other annoying friends do. (Not you , though Mel, cus I talk to you now about MY boy problems)."Thank you for putting up with me for the past life time actually, yyou look past m faults and are still supportive...so it sounds like we are in a lasting mrriage. =] just kiddding, thats just what it seems like a marraige should be... i spelled "MARRIAGe" different 2 times so i don't know which is right.." (Quoted from Melanie). Haha I feel the exact same way about her. (no homo). I meant the part about looking past my faults and still supporting me :) ily Mel <3 This will be our 16th year of friendship! Go 2010! Or TwentyTen I should say ;)
Our favorite sleepover food: Chex Seaweed Mix, Instant Nesquik Strawberry Milk, Popcorn w/ ton of butter, & other pig out food.
Our favorite shows: Family Guy,American Dad,& Ryan Higa
Our favorite colors: Purple(the best), Blue, and Teal.
Our most desired items: iTouch, American Apparel Hoodies, Uggs (REAL UGGS. Oh, yeah forgot to talk about Mel's obsession with Uggs. Whenever we're walking around the mall, at least 12 times she'll say, "Look Laurie! That girl has REAL Uggs!" Haha =])
Our favorite celebs: Taylor Lautner, Justin Bieber, Lucas Till, Selena Gomez, Demi Lovato, & Taylor Swift.
Famous Friendships we compare ourselves to: Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato, Spongebob and Patrick, & Pooh Bear and Piglet :D
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
My Heart's Secrets ;)
Today was one of the most stressful days of my entire life. I had 3 tests and a quiz today. & I have a quiz and a test tomorrow too. What are these teachers thinking? Biology test wasn't as hard as I thought it was gonna be, so that's good. Geometry test was multiple choice; it kinda reminded me of my Trig. teacher's tests. Church History is what killed me. I had no idea we could use notecards (cus I wasn't here yesterday; I was helping those less fortunate @ St. Anthony's, jeez). & I missed the game where I coulda earned extra points! :( So I'm disappointed at that. Spanish is just a breeze. I don't really have to study for that class, but I guess I do anyways. That didn't really make sense. During church history, I saw "his" picture & after that, I couldn't stop thinking about "him" all day. Gaah. Why is he still running through my mind? This shouldn't be happening. Nobody can understand what went on & what I go through. If only I could muster up the courage to tell him how I feel...oh but then I would look stupid. Dad told me today that people are shy cus they're prideful. That didn't really make sense to me at first til he explained that people who are shy are afraid of rejection, cus it'll hurt their pride. I never thought if it that way....& I really don't. Cus most of the time, unless circumstances won't allow me, I'm usually a shy person. *Dum dum dum* But like I said, I can be outgoing-ish when i want to. Ugh. I'm so upset with myself cus I think I scared him off or something. It's so weird cus I know it would never work out between us two, but somewhere else in my mind I believe it could possibly happen. Everyone around me is telling me to drop you cus you bein a jerk, but i just can't. Look at that. We're not even together & I'm already stressin'. Maybe in reality, we really just can't work out....:(
I had a dream one night that you had died...& I couldn't stop crying. I really don't know what I'd do if I knew you were gone. I wouldn't have much to live for. You always made me look forward to going to school last yeear. I shoulda taken advantage of the time that you were actually here. I just wasted my time with another guy that really wasn't worth my time. I wish I could just go back in time and change that all. That guy wasn't worth anything. He was just a rebound from the other guy that I really fell for: well, yennow, after you of course. :) But I got over him & the rebound. I just can't get over you. After 5 freakin' years. I just can't. No matter how full of yourself you can get, or how you lamely tease me, I still love you. I can't get you out of my mind. Being one year older, I'm tryna be another year more mature about who I choose to give my heart to. Really, truly, not tryna be cheesy, but I wanna give my heart to you. It's a matter of if you want to accept it. Been standing there: waiting in rain or shine, snow or sleet, I've been waiting. For 5 years. That takes some real energy & dedication. & I'm putting it all in cus for some reason, I have this strange hope that you might finally answer the door and accept me. Not cus I'm athletic. or smart. or pretty. Just being plain ol' klutzy, weirdo me. Well,right now, I don't like anyone at school, mostly focusing on schoolwork & grades and college and stuff. But no one else matches up to you. Serious. No joke. It's like my heart is waiting for you to come back or somethin. But of course you won't. You're at a prestigious college miles away. I really wish I told you. But now is just the wrong time. We barely even talk as much as we used to anymore, and I can't get the courage to call you: even though your number's right there on my phone. When I first saw you 5 years ago, right when I stepped through that door, my eyes instantly focused towards you. It was hella strange, I know. I was so heartbroken when I was kinda forced by my mom to leave, cus I thought I would never see you again. But fate has its ways. It gave me an opportunity, but I didn't take advantage of it. It was nice talking every single day in Maui by text, but it was funny cus we were like, ILL TALK TO YOU AFTER I GET BACK! but we ended up talking everyday of my trip. Haha :) Good times. Good times never last tho. After that, you kinda disappointed by cancelling on me, but I got over it. I dont know what happened, if someone told you something or what not, but then you stopped talking & responding to me. I just don't know. Did I scare you off or something? I really just wanna be friends now. This crush thing is kinda over. This happens EVERYTIME with any guy I've had feelings for. i'm too nice to break it off, so I let you guys ignore me and leave me heartbroken. Yup. that's the story of my life. Well, you're never ever gonna read this, so I'm just gonna stop here, kay? Love you lots <3 Always have; always will xoxoxo ~written @ the spur of the moment by ME =)
I had a dream one night that you had died...& I couldn't stop crying. I really don't know what I'd do if I knew you were gone. I wouldn't have much to live for. You always made me look forward to going to school last yeear. I shoulda taken advantage of the time that you were actually here. I just wasted my time with another guy that really wasn't worth my time. I wish I could just go back in time and change that all. That guy wasn't worth anything. He was just a rebound from the other guy that I really fell for: well, yennow, after you of course. :) But I got over him & the rebound. I just can't get over you. After 5 freakin' years. I just can't. No matter how full of yourself you can get, or how you lamely tease me, I still love you. I can't get you out of my mind. Being one year older, I'm tryna be another year more mature about who I choose to give my heart to. Really, truly, not tryna be cheesy, but I wanna give my heart to you. It's a matter of if you want to accept it. Been standing there: waiting in rain or shine, snow or sleet, I've been waiting. For 5 years. That takes some real energy & dedication. & I'm putting it all in cus for some reason, I have this strange hope that you might finally answer the door and accept me. Not cus I'm athletic. or smart. or pretty. Just being plain ol' klutzy, weirdo me. Well,right now, I don't like anyone at school, mostly focusing on schoolwork & grades and college and stuff. But no one else matches up to you. Serious. No joke. It's like my heart is waiting for you to come back or somethin. But of course you won't. You're at a prestigious college miles away. I really wish I told you. But now is just the wrong time. We barely even talk as much as we used to anymore, and I can't get the courage to call you: even though your number's right there on my phone. When I first saw you 5 years ago, right when I stepped through that door, my eyes instantly focused towards you. It was hella strange, I know. I was so heartbroken when I was kinda forced by my mom to leave, cus I thought I would never see you again. But fate has its ways. It gave me an opportunity, but I didn't take advantage of it. It was nice talking every single day in Maui by text, but it was funny cus we were like, ILL TALK TO YOU AFTER I GET BACK! but we ended up talking everyday of my trip. Haha :) Good times. Good times never last tho. After that, you kinda disappointed by cancelling on me, but I got over it. I dont know what happened, if someone told you something or what not, but then you stopped talking & responding to me. I just don't know. Did I scare you off or something? I really just wanna be friends now. This crush thing is kinda over. This happens EVERYTIME with any guy I've had feelings for. i'm too nice to break it off, so I let you guys ignore me and leave me heartbroken. Yup. that's the story of my life. Well, you're never ever gonna read this, so I'm just gonna stop here, kay? Love you lots <3 Always have; always will xoxoxo ~written @ the spur of the moment by ME =)
Untitled. Cus it wants to stay untitled.
I make this solemn promise to you:
To be your lover when you need to be loved,
your doctor when you are ill,
your army when you go to war,
your umbrella when life rains down on you,
your rock when you get weary,
your shield when you need defense,
your spirit when you are drained,
your pillow when you need to rest,
your voice when no one can hear you,
your ear when no one will listen,
your comfort when you feel pain,
your hero when you are under duress,
your sunshine when darkness falls,
your answer when questions arise,
your inspiration to overcome obstacles,
your hand to hold when you are frightened,
your kiss that wakes you everyday,
and your "I love you" each and every night.
When I was little,
I had a lush dream,
That one day I find
And marry a Queen.
She'd sit by my side,
Up there on our throne,
With princes and princesses
So we're never alone.
I can honestly say,
My dream has come true
And you'd never believe
Just how much I love you.
I may not be king
And you may not be queen
But together we're perfect
Just like in my dream.
My love for you is like a red, red rose,
It started as a seed but it’s grown and grown.
Its roots reach deep down inside of my chest,
And it grows even more with each passing breath.
The delicate petals lay beautiful and pure,
All the doubts that I’ve had you have since cured.
For all the thorns that this proud rose bears,
They are all softened by the thought of your care.
Soon the rose grows old and withers and dies,
But the love that helped grow it will last for all time.
The sun sets
Upon the golden sand
We sit together
Hand in hand
We gently embrace
And look into each other's eyes
I wonder if you are
An angel in disguise
You hold me
Like there's no tomorrow
I suddenly forget
The past sorrow
I kiss your soft lips
And you kiss mine
I never knew
Loving someone could be this fine
You pick me up
And carry me to our room
Oh how a love can blossom
And a heart can bloom.
Your touch is so gentle
But your hands so strong
How could a love like this
Ever go wrong?
My heart is beating
200 times a minute
Because my love
You are in it
The sound of your heartbeat
All through the night
We fall asleep in each other's arms
And wake to the morning light.
I look into your eyes
And this is when
I say "Thank You"
For teaching me to love again.
It's perfect, and touches me deep
First thing in the morning, when I hear you speak
And last thing at night as you bid me sweet dreams
The brush of your lips lets me know what you mean
And all of the hours that pass through the day
Those spent together and when you're away
I think of you always, imagine your touch
Think how to show you, I love you so much
So when we're apart, and you long for me near
Just try to remember, you're already here
For deep in my heart, where no one can see
You'll be forever, together we'll be
That morning whisper
A gentle kiss
A suspended moment
Of perfect bliss
That precious feeling
As eyes first meet
Bodies entwined
In sleepy heat
Fingers touching
Breath as one
Hearts in rhythm
We greet the sun
Content, in truth
Just to be
Simply enjoying
You and me
Love is patient, love is kind,
And what our loves express is true.
No amount of tragedy can tear
Or break the love I have for you.
Time has healed our many wounds,
But has not erased the memory.
But we'll hold on, we'll stay together.
We will get through this, you and me.
Though we are young and still learning
About ourselves, our world today,
In my heart, I'll always love you,
And in my heart you'll always stay.
As days go by, as time progresses,
We will change, mature, and always grow.
But as we grow, as we reminisce,
There is one thing I will always know.
My love for you will never falter,
Never cease, for it's always true.
With love comes patience, but it's worth the wait,
To share my unending love with you.
I know you're going crazy,
I've been there too.
I can see how the weight is making your knees bend,
Let me take some of it from you.
Don't keep yourself closed off,
I am here for you to open up and let go.
There is so much you can't forget or forgive,
Let me help you cope, we can work things out together.
I hear the pain in your voice,
You need me now.
Don't worry, I'll move heaven and hell to get there.
You can't talk, you won't talk about it,
I understand.
Put your worries in my hands.
Lay your head down,
And believe that I will do anything to stop your tears.
You're ready to give up, you've stopped,
I want to be able to give you the strength to keep going.
Link arms with me, Let's move on,
As one living, breathing, loving, being.
Know that you can put faith in me.
I will be your rock, I will be your dwelling,
I am here with you, for you always.
I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart
If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me
In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear
The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much
Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring
I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you
Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more
So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know I blessed I feel
to have you here with me
Words twist and tumble
Through my mind
But I can't grab the right word
Or the right line
So we sit
In silence
But it’s not uncomfortable
In fact I love it
You rest your head on my chest
As we lay here
Lovers entwined
Hearts tangled
You raise your head
And look into my eyes
And I see our love
Almost as if it’s a real force
I don’t ever want to lose this moment
You lay your head on my chest once again
And now I can feel your heartbeat
And my hearts skips
And I finally find the words I’m looking for
I love you
Cinderella
I’m standing on the stairs in a magnificent hall
Wearing the dress that I bought for the ball
It’s long and flowing, sparkling white
My tiara of diamonds shines in the light
At the bottom of the stairs you’re waiting for me
And I gracefully float down for all to see
You take my hand and touch my face
You’re the only one I notice in the expansive space
We’re now dancing in shadows of flickering light
Holding each other close, holding each other tight
You kiss my neck and then touch my face
Then kiss my lips in a loving embrace
Time stands still whilst we are together
Feels so good, it seems like forever
I look at the clock, that cannot be right
But the bells start to chime, confirming midnight
But there’s no need to leave
From the ball tonight
I’ll be with you my prince
For the rest of our life.
I used to dream of eyes so blue
And loving arms to hold me.
I used to dream of heroic knights
And how gracious they would be.
I used to dream of how I wouldn’t settle
For anything less than best.
I used to dream of how he would majestically
Lay all fears to rest.
I used to dream of fairy tales,
How wondrous would they be
I used to dream of story books
All patterned after me.
I used to dream of a lot of things,
But the moment I met you,
I immediately stopped dreaming,
Because all of my dreams came true.
I gazed in your eyes,
Such a beautiful blue;
My heart whispered to me,
And that’s right when I knew;
The waves had ceased crashing,
On the sand at our feet;
Time had stopped passing,
My search was complete;
I finally discovered,
What I'd known all along;
A mystery uncovered,
That just couldn't be wrong;
It wasn't our first kiss,
Nor' the day that we met;
But I realized something,
I will never forget;
With the stars shining brightly,
From high up above;
I'd one word to describe it,
That word, is love.
I knew then these feelings,
For my sweetheart were true;
The man of my dreams,
And my soulmate, is you.
I think of it every time,
That I look at the stars;
This memory is mine,
But that moment was ours.
When first I looked into your eyes
each breath became a thousand sighs.
My heart drummed out a thunder beat
I glowed with joy from head to feet.
The hand of love had touched my soul,
as the bell of destiny began to toll.
The tide of love began to rise,
the world was filled with summer skies.
My sodden clouds of cold and grey
glowed with gold, then wisped away.
A brilliant rainbow arched across,
as waves of love began to toss.
The air was filled with lovebird cries,
when I first looked into your eyes.
When I first looked into your eyes,
all time and space were paralyzed
And in that instant, I was shown
a universe I had never known.
I dwell there still, in Paradise,
when I look into your eyes.
You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.
My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.
I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.
You're the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
And everything I say.
You're the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.
You're the hand that's laced in mine,
And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
My shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring,
Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.
You're the dimple in my cheek,
The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
The happiness of my life.
You are all I've wanted,
You are all I need.
You are all I've dreamed of,
You are all of this to me.
As I wake by your side,
My feelings for you I can not hide,
I touch your face in the morning light,
Being with you just feels so right
You make me feel like I'm a queen,
Like being inside an awesome dream,
Although this is real, that I know,
As the love that surrounds us continues to grow
I think of what the future holds...
Marriage, children, us growing old,
And as I lay, with you dear,
I'm just so glad you're mine, you're here.
Take my hand this way we'll go,
Said the man above,
I'll take you to a place of joy,
Where you will find true love,
If you let go, go on your own,
But mistakes you will make,
For many other ways there are,
Which you are sure to take,
When you feel that you are lost,
All you have to do is pray,
And I'll be there once again,
To help you on your way,
I did pray and just as said,
He shined his light from above,
That showed me the way down the golden path,
That led me to your love.
I think that I might fly away, in my hot air balloon,
And hide from worldly worries on the dark side of the moon;
There’s but one thing I need before I float into the blue:
I need a sky companion and I want it to be you.
We’ll fly beyond the storm clouds and we’ll watch from up above,
I’ll cover you in rainbows as we feel each others’ love;
You’ll shower in the stars at midnight in our special place,
I’ll dry you with a comet’s tail and kiss your beaming face.
Dreamy drifting panorama, changing every day,
Every night your loving smile will be my milky way,
The moon will wane before us, sailing there in heaven’s height,
For nothing else can challenge our love’s everlasting light.
Venus shining on us, glowing soft at our devotion,
Our daily drifting dalliance in love’s celestial ocean,
I’ll write you lovers’ poetry, and you will be my muse,
Orion and Andromeda will oversee our cruise.
We’ll sleep with clouds as pillows, maybe steal an angel’s wings,
Then fly as magic lovebirds, or slide round Saturn’s rings,
And should we tire of drifting and the stars all floating by,
We’ll hook onto a meteor and soar across the sky.
Will you consent to be my mate on our celestial ship?
I’m ready, heart all packed with love, to last us for the trip,
Take my hand and step aboard, we’re heading for the sun,
We’re flying till we find the place where our two souls are one.
To be your lover when you need to be loved,
your doctor when you are ill,
your army when you go to war,
your umbrella when life rains down on you,
your rock when you get weary,
your shield when you need defense,
your spirit when you are drained,
your pillow when you need to rest,
your voice when no one can hear you,
your ear when no one will listen,
your comfort when you feel pain,
your hero when you are under duress,
your sunshine when darkness falls,
your answer when questions arise,
your inspiration to overcome obstacles,
your hand to hold when you are frightened,
your kiss that wakes you everyday,
and your "I love you" each and every night.
When I was little,
I had a lush dream,
That one day I find
And marry a Queen.
She'd sit by my side,
Up there on our throne,
With princes and princesses
So we're never alone.
I can honestly say,
My dream has come true
And you'd never believe
Just how much I love you.
I may not be king
And you may not be queen
But together we're perfect
Just like in my dream.
My love for you is like a red, red rose,
It started as a seed but it’s grown and grown.
Its roots reach deep down inside of my chest,
And it grows even more with each passing breath.
The delicate petals lay beautiful and pure,
All the doubts that I’ve had you have since cured.
For all the thorns that this proud rose bears,
They are all softened by the thought of your care.
Soon the rose grows old and withers and dies,
But the love that helped grow it will last for all time.
The sun sets
Upon the golden sand
We sit together
Hand in hand
We gently embrace
And look into each other's eyes
I wonder if you are
An angel in disguise
You hold me
Like there's no tomorrow
I suddenly forget
The past sorrow
I kiss your soft lips
And you kiss mine
I never knew
Loving someone could be this fine
You pick me up
And carry me to our room
Oh how a love can blossom
And a heart can bloom.
Your touch is so gentle
But your hands so strong
How could a love like this
Ever go wrong?
My heart is beating
200 times a minute
Because my love
You are in it
The sound of your heartbeat
All through the night
We fall asleep in each other's arms
And wake to the morning light.
I look into your eyes
And this is when
I say "Thank You"
For teaching me to love again.
It's perfect, and touches me deep
First thing in the morning, when I hear you speak
And last thing at night as you bid me sweet dreams
The brush of your lips lets me know what you mean
And all of the hours that pass through the day
Those spent together and when you're away
I think of you always, imagine your touch
Think how to show you, I love you so much
So when we're apart, and you long for me near
Just try to remember, you're already here
For deep in my heart, where no one can see
You'll be forever, together we'll be
That morning whisper
A gentle kiss
A suspended moment
Of perfect bliss
That precious feeling
As eyes first meet
Bodies entwined
In sleepy heat
Fingers touching
Breath as one
Hearts in rhythm
We greet the sun
Content, in truth
Just to be
Simply enjoying
You and me
Love is patient, love is kind,
And what our loves express is true.
No amount of tragedy can tear
Or break the love I have for you.
Time has healed our many wounds,
But has not erased the memory.
But we'll hold on, we'll stay together.
We will get through this, you and me.
Though we are young and still learning
About ourselves, our world today,
In my heart, I'll always love you,
And in my heart you'll always stay.
As days go by, as time progresses,
We will change, mature, and always grow.
But as we grow, as we reminisce,
There is one thing I will always know.
My love for you will never falter,
Never cease, for it's always true.
With love comes patience, but it's worth the wait,
To share my unending love with you.
I know you're going crazy,
I've been there too.
I can see how the weight is making your knees bend,
Let me take some of it from you.
Don't keep yourself closed off,
I am here for you to open up and let go.
There is so much you can't forget or forgive,
Let me help you cope, we can work things out together.
I hear the pain in your voice,
You need me now.
Don't worry, I'll move heaven and hell to get there.
You can't talk, you won't talk about it,
I understand.
Put your worries in my hands.
Lay your head down,
And believe that I will do anything to stop your tears.
You're ready to give up, you've stopped,
I want to be able to give you the strength to keep going.
Link arms with me, Let's move on,
As one living, breathing, loving, being.
Know that you can put faith in me.
I will be your rock, I will be your dwelling,
I am here with you, for you always.
I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart
If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me
In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear
The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much
Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring
I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you
Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more
So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know I blessed I feel
to have you here with me
Words twist and tumble
Through my mind
But I can't grab the right word
Or the right line
So we sit
In silence
But it’s not uncomfortable
In fact I love it
You rest your head on my chest
As we lay here
Lovers entwined
Hearts tangled
You raise your head
And look into my eyes
And I see our love
Almost as if it’s a real force
I don’t ever want to lose this moment
You lay your head on my chest once again
And now I can feel your heartbeat
And my hearts skips
And I finally find the words I’m looking for
I love you
Cinderella
I’m standing on the stairs in a magnificent hall
Wearing the dress that I bought for the ball
It’s long and flowing, sparkling white
My tiara of diamonds shines in the light
At the bottom of the stairs you’re waiting for me
And I gracefully float down for all to see
You take my hand and touch my face
You’re the only one I notice in the expansive space
We’re now dancing in shadows of flickering light
Holding each other close, holding each other tight
You kiss my neck and then touch my face
Then kiss my lips in a loving embrace
Time stands still whilst we are together
Feels so good, it seems like forever
I look at the clock, that cannot be right
But the bells start to chime, confirming midnight
But there’s no need to leave
From the ball tonight
I’ll be with you my prince
For the rest of our life.
I used to dream of eyes so blue
And loving arms to hold me.
I used to dream of heroic knights
And how gracious they would be.
I used to dream of how I wouldn’t settle
For anything less than best.
I used to dream of how he would majestically
Lay all fears to rest.
I used to dream of fairy tales,
How wondrous would they be
I used to dream of story books
All patterned after me.
I used to dream of a lot of things,
But the moment I met you,
I immediately stopped dreaming,
Because all of my dreams came true.
I gazed in your eyes,
Such a beautiful blue;
My heart whispered to me,
And that’s right when I knew;
The waves had ceased crashing,
On the sand at our feet;
Time had stopped passing,
My search was complete;
I finally discovered,
What I'd known all along;
A mystery uncovered,
That just couldn't be wrong;
It wasn't our first kiss,
Nor' the day that we met;
But I realized something,
I will never forget;
With the stars shining brightly,
From high up above;
I'd one word to describe it,
That word, is love.
I knew then these feelings,
For my sweetheart were true;
The man of my dreams,
And my soulmate, is you.
I think of it every time,
That I look at the stars;
This memory is mine,
But that moment was ours.
When first I looked into your eyes
each breath became a thousand sighs.
My heart drummed out a thunder beat
I glowed with joy from head to feet.
The hand of love had touched my soul,
as the bell of destiny began to toll.
The tide of love began to rise,
the world was filled with summer skies.
My sodden clouds of cold and grey
glowed with gold, then wisped away.
A brilliant rainbow arched across,
as waves of love began to toss.
The air was filled with lovebird cries,
when I first looked into your eyes.
When I first looked into your eyes,
all time and space were paralyzed
And in that instant, I was shown
a universe I had never known.
I dwell there still, in Paradise,
when I look into your eyes.
You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.
My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.
I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.
You're the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
And everything I say.
You're the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.
You're the hand that's laced in mine,
And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
My shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring,
Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.
You're the dimple in my cheek,
The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
The happiness of my life.
You are all I've wanted,
You are all I need.
You are all I've dreamed of,
You are all of this to me.
As I wake by your side,
My feelings for you I can not hide,
I touch your face in the morning light,
Being with you just feels so right
You make me feel like I'm a queen,
Like being inside an awesome dream,
Although this is real, that I know,
As the love that surrounds us continues to grow
I think of what the future holds...
Marriage, children, us growing old,
And as I lay, with you dear,
I'm just so glad you're mine, you're here.
Take my hand this way we'll go,
Said the man above,
I'll take you to a place of joy,
Where you will find true love,
If you let go, go on your own,
But mistakes you will make,
For many other ways there are,
Which you are sure to take,
When you feel that you are lost,
All you have to do is pray,
And I'll be there once again,
To help you on your way,
I did pray and just as said,
He shined his light from above,
That showed me the way down the golden path,
That led me to your love.
I think that I might fly away, in my hot air balloon,
And hide from worldly worries on the dark side of the moon;
There’s but one thing I need before I float into the blue:
I need a sky companion and I want it to be you.
We’ll fly beyond the storm clouds and we’ll watch from up above,
I’ll cover you in rainbows as we feel each others’ love;
You’ll shower in the stars at midnight in our special place,
I’ll dry you with a comet’s tail and kiss your beaming face.
Dreamy drifting panorama, changing every day,
Every night your loving smile will be my milky way,
The moon will wane before us, sailing there in heaven’s height,
For nothing else can challenge our love’s everlasting light.
Venus shining on us, glowing soft at our devotion,
Our daily drifting dalliance in love’s celestial ocean,
I’ll write you lovers’ poetry, and you will be my muse,
Orion and Andromeda will oversee our cruise.
We’ll sleep with clouds as pillows, maybe steal an angel’s wings,
Then fly as magic lovebirds, or slide round Saturn’s rings,
And should we tire of drifting and the stars all floating by,
We’ll hook onto a meteor and soar across the sky.
Will you consent to be my mate on our celestial ship?
I’m ready, heart all packed with love, to last us for the trip,
Take my hand and step aboard, we’re heading for the sun,
We’re flying till we find the place where our two souls are one.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Congratulations, bro!
Congratulations to my brother Mike (Psycho Miko) & my new sister-in-law Jackie (Wacky Jackie)! Married on 092709 <3 Have fun on your Italian honeymoon! I wonder if they're gonna ride those gondolas w/ the guy singing and everything. That'd be cool.
Well, back to quotes:
"Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love's not enough, & move on. When things are not like before...surely there is someone out there who will love you even more."
"That's when you realize he's the boy you're crazy for. the boy who makes you laugh on the worst days. he's not perfect but neither are you. sometimes he's dorky but he's your dork. he kisses you in rain & loves you for who you are. he made you realize it's possible to have permanent butterflies. he's the boy that makes you feeling amazing and when you're with him and he's holding you in his arms, life is perfect because he loves you and you love him. <3"
"i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i just wish i could say it to your face."
"i love it when he smiles. it's cute how he laughs. everytime i look at him, i remember the first time he looked into my eyes and now i can't imagine my life without him. yep! that little boy has me wrapped around his finger!"
"after the funeral, my grandfather hugged me. And I'll never forget what he said. he told me that he had just lost the love of his life, the most important thing in the world to him, and that it hurt like hell. He said he probably wouldn't ever be the same. but then he looked me straight in the eyes; he said that his time with her was somethign he would never trade, that it was the only thing worth living for. he told me to find that. he told me that once i had that, nothing else would be as important. and he said once i found it, to cherish it and never let it go."
"I want to love, & be loved back, but it's the courage to feel, that i lack, i don't want to get hurt, don't want to cry, don't want to spend everyday, wishing i'd die. i wnat to fall in love..but i don't wanna get hurt. i don't want to go crazy over such a little flirt. i don't wanna get too close, because it'd hurt too much. <3"
"Guys are like stars. There are millions of them, but only one can make your wish come true."
"It breaks your heart when you can walk right past someoen as if they were never a huge part of your life. You could talk on the phone for hours, now you can't even look each other in the eye...It breaks your heart to know things change & there's nothing you can do to stop it."
"Doing what you love is freedom, loving what you do is happiness."
"Tryin' to think of something to do. Tryin' to think of something, anything; just to keep me from thinking of you. You know it's not working out 'cause you're all that I think about. One thought of you is all it takes, to leave the rest of the world behind."
Well, back to quotes:
"Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love's not enough, & move on. When things are not like before...surely there is someone out there who will love you even more."
"That's when you realize he's the boy you're crazy for. the boy who makes you laugh on the worst days. he's not perfect but neither are you. sometimes he's dorky but he's your dork. he kisses you in rain & loves you for who you are. he made you realize it's possible to have permanent butterflies. he's the boy that makes you feeling amazing and when you're with him and he's holding you in his arms, life is perfect because he loves you and you love him. <3"
"i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i just wish i could say it to your face."
"i love it when he smiles. it's cute how he laughs. everytime i look at him, i remember the first time he looked into my eyes and now i can't imagine my life without him. yep! that little boy has me wrapped around his finger!"
"after the funeral, my grandfather hugged me. And I'll never forget what he said. he told me that he had just lost the love of his life, the most important thing in the world to him, and that it hurt like hell. He said he probably wouldn't ever be the same. but then he looked me straight in the eyes; he said that his time with her was somethign he would never trade, that it was the only thing worth living for. he told me to find that. he told me that once i had that, nothing else would be as important. and he said once i found it, to cherish it and never let it go."
"I want to love, & be loved back, but it's the courage to feel, that i lack, i don't want to get hurt, don't want to cry, don't want to spend everyday, wishing i'd die. i wnat to fall in love..but i don't wanna get hurt. i don't want to go crazy over such a little flirt. i don't wanna get too close, because it'd hurt too much. <3"
"Guys are like stars. There are millions of them, but only one can make your wish come true."
"It breaks your heart when you can walk right past someoen as if they were never a huge part of your life. You could talk on the phone for hours, now you can't even look each other in the eye...It breaks your heart to know things change & there's nothing you can do to stop it."
"Doing what you love is freedom, loving what you do is happiness."
"Tryin' to think of something to do. Tryin' to think of something, anything; just to keep me from thinking of you. You know it's not working out 'cause you're all that I think about. One thought of you is all it takes, to leave the rest of the world behind."
Monday, September 21, 2009
Wishhlist :)
For Christmas//Birthday , baaby !
-Paramore, Never Shout Never, All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Taylor Swift Concert Tickets
-an iTouch
-Plaid clothing.
-American Apparel Hoodies (Cranberry, Green, Purple, Asphalt)
-Uggs (Sand, Grey, Chocolate)
-Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aeropostale/Wet Seal/Forever21/Hot Topic/Tilly's/Anchor Blue/PacSun/Jamba Juice/Auntie Anne's Pretzels/Noah's Bagels/iTunes/Nubi/Tuttimelon Gift Cards.
-Paramore, Never Shout Never, All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Taylor Swift Concert Tickets
-an iTouch
-Plaid clothing.
-American Apparel Hoodies (Cranberry, Green, Purple, Asphalt)
-Uggs (Sand, Grey, Chocolate)
-Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aeropostale/Wet Seal/Forever21/Hot Topic/Tilly's/Anchor Blue/PacSun/Jamba Juice/Auntie Anne's Pretzels/Noah's Bagels/iTunes/Nubi/Tuttimelon Gift Cards.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
09.10.09
Today were my easy classes. 6,5,4. Art. English Honors. & Spanish. Art ; we did perspective drawing, & I think mine turned out okay. But I really like Channing's. =) English ; our table is dope. Nica Zulueta, Chip Fulbright, Patrick Fung, & of course, moi, Laurie Chin! :D It's hilarious how Chip tries to make a point from A Separate Peace, but he's never even read the book. *tsk tsk* haha. Oh yeeah , thanks for the birthday present Chip! ( It was a picture of himself ). Oh yes, & he said that I should put it in my wallet so everytime I spend money I look at his picture. -.- Glad to know, Chipster. Nica , as always is messing with my legs (ew, that came out wrong). At lunch, Calvin and Chip were trying to find where my belly button was and when they found it, they were like Whoa, what the hell? Why is your belly button so high? Spanish , I flunked the verb quiz. The whole class probably did too. It was waaay too hard. Good thing I didn't go Spanish Honors. Goodness. Fun time hanging out with Lauren, Lauren, Laura, Charlotte, Breanne, Julian, Chip, & Calvin after school. =) That's pretty much it. Oh yeah ; LAST DAY OF PIANO LESSONS TODAY . After 10 years, I'm stopping piano for now . But I think this will just be a hiatus. =)
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
oh nine, oh nine, oh nine! :D
Well, as you can see, today is 09.09.09! :) & it is also my friend, Brian Chan's, birthday! Happy Birthday Brian! You're 18, now. Official adult. Wow, I still kinda remember when we first met, you were only 13 or 14...whoa. I still got a way to go til I turn 18. But yeah, Brian, you hella old, maang. :) Haha. Today, I had the boring blocks: 1, 2, & 3. Biology, Geometry, aand "the best for last"; Church History. =/ Duude ; I hate 1,2,3. I like my 4,5,6 blocks better, cus I don't have to use my brain for those classes. :) Anyways, today in biology, we did a lab. My lab partners were Christina and Michelle, & poor Arianna was totally freaking out that she didn't have the right clothes on for dress-up day today. Oh YES; did I mention we had Mass today? *sigh*. Anyways, Mincin,Tang, & I (without the wonderful future American idol Miss Tolentino, hehe) did a lab about acids and bases. It was actually pretty cool. I love Ms. Gutowski. She explains everything so easily I totally understand. Never thought I'd understand Bio. Then we had the mass of course. That went on for waaay too longg. Like from 9:20-11:10. Geez. Anyways, lunch was yucky. Chili Cheese Nachos or Chicken Fajita Pita Sandwich. Double yuck. I took the nachos and just ate the rortilla chips and scraped off the beans and stuff. I found a lucky penny on the floor during lunch too. Chip used it for his 'magic tricks'. Haha I love that kid :) Can't believe he's younger than me by like less than a month. Anything he says sounds right even though its wrong JUST because of the way he says it. LOL. Geometry with Mr. Compton is always..interesting. Right, Ricky? Yes, as Mr. Compton would say, "Don't drink, don't smoke, and don't have bad dreams!"~ <-oh yeah, does anyone know what that even stands for? Jason and I are still trying to figure it out, but for now, we just call it a pretty decoration when we type. :D I think the next movie we should watch is All About Steve. Haha I love comedies. But seriously, I'm glad we both hate scary movies :P Anyways, back to school. Church history, duude, I looked at the clock like every 2 minutes. Sooo aburrido I can't stand it! I don't really talk to anyone much except Mariel, Aerielle, Johncy, Paolo & Sabina. At tennis practice, I got my freakin spot on singles! WOO HOO! but seriously, Kelsey could probably bump me off anytime she wanted to, cus she's a HELLA beastin' tennis player. ;) Weell, that's all for this special day . Gbye!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
My testimony :D
I accepted Christ when I was five years old in my kindergarten class. I didn't really know what I was getting myself into; I just knew the teacher wanted me to. Over the years, I continued to learn more about God and grew spiritually; listening to Bible stories/sermons, going to Sunday School, etc., and it became embedded in my lifestyle. being at a Christian school and church my whole life, and being surrounded by a supportive group of Christian friends, you're probably thinking, "Oh, what a strong religious life you have!" Actually, that is not true at all. As a person who has grown up in a religious environment, I knew all the right answers during Sunday School: God, Jesus, the Bible, and He died for our sins. However, I felt like all the words coming from my mouth was meaningless gibberish. I knew in my head it was the right answer, but it wasn't how I felt in my heart. As I grew older, the difficult social situations and boy problems began to take priority over my faith and love of God. I started to drift away from God and the church. Going to church started to feel like a chore. I was just going through the motions of a typical Christian, but not truly believing in my actions. I began to distance myself from my friends at school and even my church friends. All the parents and my peers at church had such a different reputation of me (a perfect, intelligent, close-to-God relationship [because I served in so many ministries in the church] ), but I wasn't like that at all when I was at school. I was exposed to swearing, lying, and horrible things I never want to relive. As a result, I began to do exactly as my outside influences did. Arguments with my parents became more frequent. I would yell hateful words at my parents that I deeply regretted.I broke away from my church background for awhile. My life was a huge, tangled mess. I felt like I had no one to run to for help. However, God's plan for me had just begun to unfold, especially His plan to focus me back towards HIm. This past summer, I went to our church's annual camp (for high schoolers/middle schoolers), and the theme was Unshakable Foundation. There, the 'foundation' of my faith began to build up again, and I felt so reconnected with the Lord. There I realized that, even as a Christian, I face many trials that God purposely places in my life to test my obedience and faith in His power and might, and even if I feel like I've failed Him, He still will encourage me and bring them back up on my feet; like a father picks his child off the ground when they fall. He not only picks me up, but helps heal those physical and emotional wounds. What a great Dad! He not only does this for me, but for anyone who accepts Him into their hearts. When I returned home from camp, I felt so spiritually refrshed. During our evening devotions with my family, I talked to my parents about what it takes to go to Heaven, and how I can be saved from going to Hell. The realization that whoever never acknowledges Christ as their Lord and Savior before they leave this Earth, they will not be on the list to go to Heaven, and they will be thrown into the Lake of Fire along with the devil, and will live a life of torture for the rest of eternity hit me hard & scared me quite a bit. The concept of time (like a clock) does not exist after the world ends, there will be no longer such a thing as 11:07 p.m. They will be there forever. And suffer. Imagine someone you dearly love; and you will never be able to see them again. That scared me out of my guts, knowing that certain family members have not acknowledged the Lord yet, and they are reaching a very old age. A few weeks before my grandfather (my mom's dad) passed away, my mother shared Christ with him on the hospital bed, and he prayed with her, and my mother felt reassured; as if a burden had been lifted off her shoulders; knowing he will be in Heaven with God. We are still working on my grandmother (my mom's), two of my uncles, my aunt, and my cousin. I really want to share Christ with them, and I hope this testimony would help. Anyways, getting back to my testimony, I was truly frightened that even though I had accepted Christ at at young age, I didn't understand what it meant, and I wouldn't be accepted into Heaven. My dad, who is a Sunday School teacher at our church, told me, as long as someone accepts Christ for the forgiveness of their sins, and nothing more. ( you don't have to do good deeds, but it's still a good thing to do). Asking God to forgive your sins is called repentance. If you repent, you will be saved, no doubt about it. But you still want to try to live a life as an example to others; displaying God through your actions; because when He created us, He made us in His wonderful image. Although we are made in His image, it doesn't mean we act exactly like Him, although we want to try to. Sin is the result of our sinful nature, and it's a choice we ourselves as humans make. Most of us do not want to admit it's our fault (believe me, I don't always like admitting that I'm wrong either). Despite all the sins we may have committed, even if it is as small as stealing cookies from the cookie jar or even murder or burglary, God still loves us, and only asks us to tell Him we're sorry and ask Him to forgive us, then He will wipe our slate of wrongdoings CLEAN. So clean we can see our reflection in it. But of course, we can't even see the slate...Haha. It's all metaphorical. He has made salvation open to us; sinful humans, although we don't deserve it, He stil offers it to us, because we are His children, made in His image, and He's our Daddy, wanting the best and to protect us. So it'd be nice to take this offer while He has it. It's like a free coupon thing for a bucket of fried chicken or something. Yumm ;D Haha. Don't wait. Well, how's this for a happily ever after? I prayed with my dad (my earthly one) after our talk, to ask my true Daddy to come back into my life, to forgive me for my past wrongdoings and future ones I'm not even aware of, and after that prayer, I felt like a reborn Christian; given a second chance, another chance to be God's child. :)
Other notes from my dad (earthly):
"People who feel their sin is worse (than another's), are more grateful of God's mercy and forgiveness/compassion on them and do things for God without feeling obligated to."
"Christianity is having a close relationship with God."
(I felt like I didn't have a close relationship with God, which made me really scared, being a Christian for 10 years, I knew I should act better. I felt people who had just recently accepted Christ 2 or 3 years ago had a better love for God than I had. But don't get me wrong, pleasing God is not a contest/competition. We try our hardest and best, even though it may not be as much as the person next to you, God sees your effort and that you're trying, and He will be proud of you.)
STORY OF SALVATION: (a short version)
God sent and sacrificed His One and Only perfect Son, Jesus, to die a horrible death on a cross, to be teased and spit upon, to have a 'crown of thorns' on his head, and nailed and suffocating on a cross, just so we dirty sinners could have salvation, and we wouldn't have to die whenever we committed a sin. Did you know that if Jesus didn't die on the cross, whenever we sinned, we would immediately die? God has the great power to do such a thing, because He was angry with the first humans, Adam and Eve, for disobeying Him. But He decided He didn't want to destroy us all, so He's giving us a chance. I don't want to give God the image of a merciless tyrant, but I want Him to be more like a loving Father, who just wants the best for us and wants us to make the best decisions, like most parents would. It will sound weirder when I say that Jesus was like a Prince. He was the Son of God! God is the King Above All Kings! And having His Son, the Prince, spit upon and kicked around by sinners? Sounds preposterous for a loving Father to do, right? Even the night before Jesus was arrested, he sweated so hard he began sweating blood, to not go through this pain. What kind of father does that? A loving,caring father. He cared enough about us to do this, and Jesus complied and said, "Your will be done." Pretty cool, huh? We're all princes and princesses, because God is the Father of all of us, and Jesus is our brother, our hermano, our bruh. Haha. And all your co-workers, classmates, teachers, family members, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, whoever accepts God as their Father, we're all related! Isn't that cool? :D It is for me! I remember in the 2nd grade, my best friend and I wished we were sisters. Don't all girls do that at a young age? I remember a funny quote I saw: "God knew our mothers couldn't handle us as sisters, so He made us best friends." :)
If you want to accept Christ, all you have to do is pray to Him. Here's a prayer I made on my own: (you can do this by yourself, with a family member, classmate, coworker, whatever,whoever,whenever!) & do this with a true, genuine heart! not just read off like the rest of the stuff here.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I know now that you are my Father, and you sent your one and only Son to die on the cross for my salvation. I'm a sinner, and I don't deserve this salvation, but you give it to me anyway. Forgive all the past sins I have committed, and future ones I'm not aware of. I want you to come into my life and work in me, and I hope I'll see you in Heaven. I love you God, my merciful Father. Amen.
THANKS FOR READING! I HOPE YOU LIKED IT!! :D
if you want to know more about the church i go to (Cornerstone Evangelical Baptist Church): www.cebc.net
there's english, cantonese, and mandarin services, and fellowships and sunday schools and ministries for all ages!
PRAISE THE LORD IF YOU ACCEPTED CHRIST AFTER READING THIS! GOD LOVES YOU & GOD BLESS!
& I'm in high school, and our choir is having a musical on the 29th of August, 2009, and the musical is entitled Daddy's Home. It takes place at 801 Silver Ave. San Francisco, CA. @ 8:00 p.m. Hope you can come!
Other notes from my dad (earthly):
"People who feel their sin is worse (than another's), are more grateful of God's mercy and forgiveness/compassion on them and do things for God without feeling obligated to."
"Christianity is having a close relationship with God."
(I felt like I didn't have a close relationship with God, which made me really scared, being a Christian for 10 years, I knew I should act better. I felt people who had just recently accepted Christ 2 or 3 years ago had a better love for God than I had. But don't get me wrong, pleasing God is not a contest/competition. We try our hardest and best, even though it may not be as much as the person next to you, God sees your effort and that you're trying, and He will be proud of you.)
STORY OF SALVATION: (a short version)
God sent and sacrificed His One and Only perfect Son, Jesus, to die a horrible death on a cross, to be teased and spit upon, to have a 'crown of thorns' on his head, and nailed and suffocating on a cross, just so we dirty sinners could have salvation, and we wouldn't have to die whenever we committed a sin. Did you know that if Jesus didn't die on the cross, whenever we sinned, we would immediately die? God has the great power to do such a thing, because He was angry with the first humans, Adam and Eve, for disobeying Him. But He decided He didn't want to destroy us all, so He's giving us a chance. I don't want to give God the image of a merciless tyrant, but I want Him to be more like a loving Father, who just wants the best for us and wants us to make the best decisions, like most parents would. It will sound weirder when I say that Jesus was like a Prince. He was the Son of God! God is the King Above All Kings! And having His Son, the Prince, spit upon and kicked around by sinners? Sounds preposterous for a loving Father to do, right? Even the night before Jesus was arrested, he sweated so hard he began sweating blood, to not go through this pain. What kind of father does that? A loving,caring father. He cared enough about us to do this, and Jesus complied and said, "Your will be done." Pretty cool, huh? We're all princes and princesses, because God is the Father of all of us, and Jesus is our brother, our hermano, our bruh. Haha. And all your co-workers, classmates, teachers, family members, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, whoever accepts God as their Father, we're all related! Isn't that cool? :D It is for me! I remember in the 2nd grade, my best friend and I wished we were sisters. Don't all girls do that at a young age? I remember a funny quote I saw: "God knew our mothers couldn't handle us as sisters, so He made us best friends." :)
If you want to accept Christ, all you have to do is pray to Him. Here's a prayer I made on my own: (you can do this by yourself, with a family member, classmate, coworker, whatever,whoever,whenever!) & do this with a true, genuine heart! not just read off like the rest of the stuff here.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I know now that you are my Father, and you sent your one and only Son to die on the cross for my salvation. I'm a sinner, and I don't deserve this salvation, but you give it to me anyway. Forgive all the past sins I have committed, and future ones I'm not aware of. I want you to come into my life and work in me, and I hope I'll see you in Heaven. I love you God, my merciful Father. Amen.
THANKS FOR READING! I HOPE YOU LIKED IT!! :D
if you want to know more about the church i go to (Cornerstone Evangelical Baptist Church): www.cebc.net
there's english, cantonese, and mandarin services, and fellowships and sunday schools and ministries for all ages!
PRAISE THE LORD IF YOU ACCEPTED CHRIST AFTER READING THIS! GOD LOVES YOU & GOD BLESS!
& I'm in high school, and our choir is having a musical on the 29th of August, 2009, and the musical is entitled Daddy's Home. It takes place at 801 Silver Ave. San Francisco, CA. @ 8:00 p.m. Hope you can come!
Buloser = A buddy whose a loser. But a buddy. & a loser. <3
"We are all a little weird
And life's a little weird,
And when we find someone
Whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them
And fall in mutual weirdness
And call it love." <3
Boy: Truth or Dare?
Girl: Truth!
Boy: Tell me one thing you never told anybody.
Girl: I Love You <3
"A kiss is just a kiss
Til you find the one you love
A hug is just a hug
Til it's with the one you're thinking of.
A dream is just a dream
Til you make it come true.
Love is just a word
Til it's proven to you."
"You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second--hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself
The best that you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins."
"I want someone who just wants to be near me,
To whisper in my ear, to hold my hand, to put my hair back behind my ear when it falls in front, to wrap me in his arms, and tell me he loves me."
"I just want that one boy whom I could be myself around, the reason why I smile is because he put it there, and the reason why I"m done looking for the one is because I would have him right in front of me." <3
OH NO CALL THE POLICE
that boy stole my heart <3
Me without you
is like A&F without the moose,
Coach purses without their Cs,
& Laguna without the drama;
pointless.
IF I COULD TELL YOU ONE THING
I guess it would be that I love hearing your voice and that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day.
&& I'M THE KIND OF GIRL
who will burst out laughing because of something that happened yesterday...
You make my heart skip beats like a scratched CD..<3
Let's flip a coin; Heads; you're mine, Tails; I'm yours ;)
Hate is easy; Love takes courage.
Here's to the nights that turned into mornings,
The friends that turned into family,
The dreams that turned into reality,
And the likes that turned into love...
I don't want him to be perfect
I want him to laugh at me, trip me, && help me up...pick me up and then throw me in the pool. Make me watch football for hours, and take me to the arcade and beat me in air hockey. Most of all, I just want to be [ glad that he loves me ] <3
I want someone
Who won't care that I'm incapable of sitting still,
That I can't grasp the concept of cleaning,
And I refuse to be ladylike,
Someone who realizes,
That half the decisions I make
Are usually ones I regret,
And I am the type to overreact at any giving moment,
I want someone who knows how completely insane I am
&& He wouldn't want me any other way.
I WISH I WAS EIGHT AGAIN
because all he would have to do is tag me and I was it <3
ALL I NEED IS JUST
one chance, one kiss, one night to show you what you mean to me. One chance to spend the day with you && to show you have we're so alike. One k i s s to prove we're more than just friends && one night to hold you tight.
LIFE IS FULL OF --->
secrets and lies
so when you get screwed over don't act surprised.
LOVE IS FOR LOSERS
and I guess I'm one of them.
They say that Disney World is the "Happiest Place On Earth". Obviously, they've never been in your arms. <3
we should get jerseys;
cause we make a good team.
but yours would look better than mine;
cause you're outta my league. :)
I'm am 99.9% sure he doesn't like me,
but it's the 0.1% that keeps me going. (haha funnaay)
SO THERES THIS BOY
and I would tell you everything about him
...but then you might just fall in love with him too. <3
THIS IS MY FAVORITE OF ALL TIME (BECAUSE IT REMINDS ME OF MY BABE):
Love is when you miss him even before he leaves, when you could listen to him talk all night && never get tired of hearing his voice, when the sound of his name sends chills down your spine & you see his smile the second you close your eyes. ily babe<3
The best accessory a girl can have is her best friend.
& when I read your texts over and over and butterflies spew from my soul, when you promise me you're here and that's for me to always know, when you share every laugh, & catch every tear, it lets me know you care about me, and there is nothing to fear<3
I knew the first time we met
YOU'D BE HARD TO FORGET. <3
You must always push the limits, because if you never fail, you will never succeed.
The people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.
Sneeze once, and somebody's thinking of you.
Sneeze twice, and somebody's talking about you.
Sneeze thrice, and you're probably sick
-but isn't it much nicer to think somebody lovesyou?
When you run from something, it only stays with you longer. If you fight something, it only makes you stronger.
WHAT'S TEENAGE LOVE?
It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. It's passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. It's going to the mall, wandering around, hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, your head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts & never go away.
MENtal anxiety
MENtal breakdown
MENstrual cramps
MENopause...
Did you ever notice how all of our problems begin with MEN?
Somewhere;
between all our laughs,
long talks,
stupid little fights,
& all of our jokes,
I fell in love.
When I was 5 years old,
my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life.
When I went to school,
they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.
I wrote down "happy."
They told me I didn't understand the assignment
and I told them they didn't understand life.
After awhile you learn the difference between holding hands and falling in love <3
You know you're in love when your heart is making more sense than your head is.
I FORGET A LOT OF THINGS BECAUSE HE TAKES UP A LOT OF SPACE IN MY MEMORY. <3
I hate the way you're constantly smiling when I'm around. I hate the way your eyes light up when they meet mine. I hate the way you walk, talk, & act.
WANNA KNOW WHY?
they're the reasons I can't let you go <3 ily baybay!
A mature talk: (maan, when I first read this, it felt like someone was scolding me)
"We're young. We don't need a boy to love, hold, and kiss. We won't always be able to relax and be kids, but we'll always be able to love. So I'm gonna get out there and liven up this world, leave my mark, make a difference, because in 5 years we will want ot rewind, but we can't. So stop worrying about that boy, now is the time of our lives, let's make mistakes and not care and memories that will never fade. Liv eit up and live it crazy. We are only young once, let's screw this up right. Drop the drama, screw the calories, and never question your actions, see ya later boy, I have history to make."
Sorry if I repeated some quotes I did in earlier blogs, but those just happen to be my favorites. I'm not sad or depressed and post those emo quotes (bleh). Because I've found someone I can love & trust. I love you lots , babe <3 ;D
And life's a little weird,
And when we find someone
Whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them
And fall in mutual weirdness
And call it love." <3
Boy: Truth or Dare?
Girl: Truth!
Boy: Tell me one thing you never told anybody.
Girl: I Love You <3
"A kiss is just a kiss
Til you find the one you love
A hug is just a hug
Til it's with the one you're thinking of.
A dream is just a dream
Til you make it come true.
Love is just a word
Til it's proven to you."
"You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second--hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself
The best that you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins."
"I want someone who just wants to be near me,
To whisper in my ear, to hold my hand, to put my hair back behind my ear when it falls in front, to wrap me in his arms, and tell me he loves me."
"I just want that one boy whom I could be myself around, the reason why I smile is because he put it there, and the reason why I"m done looking for the one is because I would have him right in front of me." <3
OH NO CALL THE POLICE
that boy stole my heart <3
Me without you
is like A&F without the moose,
Coach purses without their Cs,
& Laguna without the drama;
pointless.
IF I COULD TELL YOU ONE THING
I guess it would be that I love hearing your voice and that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day.
&& I'M THE KIND OF GIRL
who will burst out laughing because of something that happened yesterday...
You make my heart skip beats like a scratched CD..<3
Let's flip a coin; Heads; you're mine, Tails; I'm yours ;)
Hate is easy; Love takes courage.
Here's to the nights that turned into mornings,
The friends that turned into family,
The dreams that turned into reality,
And the likes that turned into love...
I don't want him to be perfect
I want him to laugh at me, trip me, && help me up...pick me up and then throw me in the pool. Make me watch football for hours, and take me to the arcade and beat me in air hockey. Most of all, I just want to be [ glad that he loves me ] <3
I want someone
Who won't care that I'm incapable of sitting still,
That I can't grasp the concept of cleaning,
And I refuse to be ladylike,
Someone who realizes,
That half the decisions I make
Are usually ones I regret,
And I am the type to overreact at any giving moment,
I want someone who knows how completely insane I am
&& He wouldn't want me any other way.
I WISH I WAS EIGHT AGAIN
because all he would have to do is tag me and I was it <3
ALL I NEED IS JUST
one chance, one kiss, one night to show you what you mean to me. One chance to spend the day with you && to show you have we're so alike. One k i s s to prove we're more than just friends && one night to hold you tight.
LIFE IS FULL OF --->
secrets and lies
so when you get screwed over don't act surprised.
LOVE IS FOR LOSERS
and I guess I'm one of them.
They say that Disney World is the "Happiest Place On Earth". Obviously, they've never been in your arms. <3
we should get jerseys;
cause we make a good team.
but yours would look better than mine;
cause you're outta my league. :)
I'm am 99.9% sure he doesn't like me,
but it's the 0.1% that keeps me going. (haha funnaay)
SO THERES THIS BOY
and I would tell you everything about him
...but then you might just fall in love with him too. <3
THIS IS MY FAVORITE OF ALL TIME (BECAUSE IT REMINDS ME OF MY BABE):
Love is when you miss him even before he leaves, when you could listen to him talk all night && never get tired of hearing his voice, when the sound of his name sends chills down your spine & you see his smile the second you close your eyes. ily babe<3
The best accessory a girl can have is her best friend.
& when I read your texts over and over and butterflies spew from my soul, when you promise me you're here and that's for me to always know, when you share every laugh, & catch every tear, it lets me know you care about me, and there is nothing to fear<3
I knew the first time we met
YOU'D BE HARD TO FORGET. <3
You must always push the limits, because if you never fail, you will never succeed.
The people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.
Sneeze once, and somebody's thinking of you.
Sneeze twice, and somebody's talking about you.
Sneeze thrice, and you're probably sick
-but isn't it much nicer to think somebody lovesyou?
When you run from something, it only stays with you longer. If you fight something, it only makes you stronger.
WHAT'S TEENAGE LOVE?
It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. It's passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. It's going to the mall, wandering around, hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, your head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts & never go away.
MENtal anxiety
MENtal breakdown
MENstrual cramps
MENopause...
Did you ever notice how all of our problems begin with MEN?
Somewhere;
between all our laughs,
long talks,
stupid little fights,
& all of our jokes,
I fell in love.
When I was 5 years old,
my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life.
When I went to school,
they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.
I wrote down "happy."
They told me I didn't understand the assignment
and I told them they didn't understand life.
After awhile you learn the difference between holding hands and falling in love <3
You know you're in love when your heart is making more sense than your head is.
I FORGET A LOT OF THINGS BECAUSE HE TAKES UP A LOT OF SPACE IN MY MEMORY. <3
I hate the way you're constantly smiling when I'm around. I hate the way your eyes light up when they meet mine. I hate the way you walk, talk, & act.
WANNA KNOW WHY?
they're the reasons I can't let you go <3 ily baybay!
A mature talk: (maan, when I first read this, it felt like someone was scolding me)
"We're young. We don't need a boy to love, hold, and kiss. We won't always be able to relax and be kids, but we'll always be able to love. So I'm gonna get out there and liven up this world, leave my mark, make a difference, because in 5 years we will want ot rewind, but we can't. So stop worrying about that boy, now is the time of our lives, let's make mistakes and not care and memories that will never fade. Liv eit up and live it crazy. We are only young once, let's screw this up right. Drop the drama, screw the calories, and never question your actions, see ya later boy, I have history to make."
Sorry if I repeated some quotes I did in earlier blogs, but those just happen to be my favorites. I'm not sad or depressed and post those emo quotes (bleh). Because I've found someone I can love & trust. I love you lots , babe <3 ;D
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Start cookin' healthier ; Go Green !
I've been learning alot the past few days at Green Cooking. I've been inspired to cook healthier meals ; well, I've been inspired to simply cook. At our summer exploration class this week, we've learned to make many delicious things, & at no expense of our weight. ;) haha every foodie's dream, right? Well, I've been ditching the fast food scene for awhile [the longest I've done was 9 months, very hard to do nowadays with these 24/7 mcdonalds & shit], and I feel great. My mom still thinks I needa lose a few pounds still. *sigh* Well, anyways, on Monday, we made guacamole & salsa. But me, my friends Tati(ana), Nica, Alondra & Christina made a guacasalsa. Haha. It was muy deliciosa ! Avocado, tomatoes, mangoes, cilantro, salt pepper, organic jalapeno sauce, manjo juice, & lime juice. Yumm ;D We also made fruit salad, corn salad, dates & cheese, & this tortilla dish I really can't remember the name of. It had corn tortilla, the sauce stuff, goat cheese...OH YEAH GOAT CHEESE ENCHILADAS!! hahahah anyways, monterey jack, this other kind of cheese, tomato, & cilantro. Good stuff, maaan =)We made it into a lasagna form, which made it taste even better! When we were cleaning up, Tati, Nica, Alondra & I were using the hose-like sink, where you can drag the hose thing wherever, and we had a water spraying fight. Good times, duude. Umm...just wondering if any of you notice this, but why do I keep saying "maan" & "duude" ? I promise I'll stop. Okay, anyways, on Tuesday, we made breakfast stuff, so me, Tati, Nica, Alondra & Christina and the rest of our class made our own muffins! Woo hoo!! we followed the basic muffin recipe, and added whatever dried fruit we wanted. We also made berry smoothies (ourselves, w/o supervision, LOL) & Ms. Buell (one of the teachers) made mango banana smoothies which were hella awesome, props to Ms. Buell. Tasted like stuff from Jamba Juice. Then we did this research thing on different fast food chains, and all the calories, fat, cholesterol, saturated fat, protein, sodium, etc. on all of them and replaced them with healthier substitues. Me, Tati, and this girl named Gemma did Panda Express. The Crispy Shrimp, ORANGE CHICKEN, Fried Rice, and Mixed Veggies : 1,050 calories. Daayyumm. Sorry people who loovveee Panda Express' Orange Chicken (including me): 584 calories. When we replaced our stuffies, we ended up with : 564 calories ! Duble Daayyumm !! Hahaha. Then we went back to the SLC, and made posters w/ taglines for our new & improved meals, but most of the time, all the frosh girls (soon to be sophomores!) : Carmen, Nica, Tati, Alondra, Christina, & Me were instead marking each other with markers & sparkly poster paint! Woo hoo! & we snuck into the men's restroom (well, some letters were torn off, and now it says, 'men res poo' & we shot some videos of us going in and stuff. hhahaha. dont tell the principal! LOL jkjk. the janitors locked the girls bathroom & we couldnt find any janitors to open the door. Okay on Wednesday, FIELD TRIP! supposedly the most fun day of the week, but it turned out to be the most boring. We got to Greens Restaurant (At Fort Mason Center, Building A). The food looked sooo goood!!!! OMFG ; but we did a tour & all the executive chef did was lecture, which kinda bored me cuz I wanted to eat!!!!! I didnt eat anything except a muffin I made MYSELF that morning. but I was staaarving cuz it was like 12:30. But the executive chef, Annie Somerville, was very nice, and shes a vegetarian too, just like the restaurant. It has a beautiful view of the harbor, and a very spacious, airy place. Very comfy too ;D After that, we took the bus to the UN Plaza's Farmers Market. We were divided into 2 groups : fruits & veggies. Each group was given $30-40 and we had to budget it all. I was in the veggies group. We sampled some strawberries, they're SOOOO DELICIOUS THIS TIME OF YEAR THEY HARVEST IT!! NO JOKE!! & Tati, Nica & I were staring at one of the guys selling mushrooms. HELLUHH FIINNNEE!! <3 haa we kept passing by back and forth from his lil tent just to glance at him. :) we noticed him cuz there were hella creepy guys there. like the guy selling dirty veggies. Yuck ! ;P We made pizza , which was hella good. Okay, since I'm finally coming back to edit this now (6.28.09) and practically forgot all the stuff we did on Thursday and Friday besides compiling our cookbooks, this is where I'll end it. =) When Ms. Buell sends us the cookbooks, I'll make sure to post it here! ;D
I'm just waiting for that one guy to prove they're not all the same..
A Special World by Sheelagh Lennon
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb..
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like these are meant to last.
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
One Wish by Courtney Kuchta
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
To the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine…
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
With anyone other than you.
What I Love About You by Crystal Jansen
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, “I love you,”
And the way you’re always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.
Never Have I Fallen by Rex Williams
Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest
I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight
Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away.
Your Name by Jessica Blade
I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
But the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
And forever it will stay.
Love is…by Meghan
Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can’t control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.
I Will Love You Forever by Amanda Martinez
I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I’ll love you forever
With all of my heart.
Forever And Always by Chris Engle
When I’m with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you…
You’ll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I’ve never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
“Forever And Always,
I Will Love You.”
My Love by Tasha Shores
My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.
My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.
My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It’s to you that I surrender.
Love by Loy Bowman
Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the girls I’ve ever met,
You’re the one I can’t forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you the best.
Love Me by Amanda Martinez
Love me in the springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the winter, when the snow is falling down.
Love me when I’m happy, and even when I’m sad,
Love me when I’m good, or even when I’m bad,
Love me when I’m pretty, or if my face is a disgrace,
Love me when I’m feeling good, or when I’m lost without a trace.
Love me always, baby, in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always, baby, after all is said and done,
Love me always, baby, until all our life is through,
Love me always, baby, for I’ll be loving you!
For You Are The One by Chris Messick
For you I would climb
The highest mountain peak
Swim the deepest ocean
Your love I do seek.
For you I would cross
The rivers most wide
Walk the hottest desert sand
To have you by my side.
For you are the one
Who makes me whole
You’ve captured my heart
And touched my soul.
For you are the one
That stepped out of my dreams
Gave me new hope
Showed me what love means.
For you alone
Are my reason to live
For the compassion you show
And the care that you give.
You came into my life
And made me complete
Each time I see you
My heart skips a beat.
For you define beauty
In both body and mind
Your soft, gentle face
More beauty I’ll ne’er find.
For you are the one
God sent from above
The angel I needed
For whom I do love.
Perfection In My Eyes by Ashley Borden
All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You’re perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I even thought we would,
I love you more than I even thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I’ll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.
I hope that one day you’ll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.
Will You Ever? By Erica
I don’t think you will
Ever fully understand
How you’ve touched my life
And made me who I am.
I don’t think you could ever know
Just how truly special you are
That even on the darkest nights
You are my brightest star.
I don’t think you will ever fully comprehend
How you’ve made my dreams come true
Or how you’ve opened my heart
To love and the wonders it can do.
You’ve allowed me to experience
Something very hard to find
Unconditional love that exists
In my body, soul, and mind.
I don’t think you could ever feel
All the love I have to give
And I’m sure you’ll never realize
You’ve been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
And without you I don’t know where I’d be.
Having you in my life
Completes and fulfills every part of me.
I Asked God by John Raine
I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet
I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day
I asked God for true love, he gave me that too
I asked for an angel and he gave me you.
Dreams by Jessica Trimble
I dream of your touch while you are away,
I dream of your smile all through the day,
I remember the day,
You came into my life,
I dream of the day I will be your wife.
I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,
I dream of the day I can say I do.
To be your wife,
To be together for life,
Is a dream I have,
Every night.
A Wish by Randy Schutte
I lie on the ground,
And stare into space,
The stars start to move,
Into the shape of your face.
I see you there now,
Looking down at me,
With that cute little smile,
That I like to see.
You say “close your eyes”,
“Tell me what you see”,
I see only two people,
Just you and me.
We’re walking on the shoreline,
With our feet getting wet,
The horizon turns pink, as the sun starts to set.
We make love through the night,
On that white sandy shore,
Then I hold you while thinking,
I could want nothing more.
Oh I wish I could be,
In that one special place,
As I lie on the ground,
And I stare into space…
Why? By Scott Wright
Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
Because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
So many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
The way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that you kiss, fills me with desire,
And how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
Lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you’re by my side,
A sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
The possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
How that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is my love for you is real.
Keeper Of My Dreams By Denise Mangano
When you’re not here to share my days and nights
My life is so incomplete
For you are my heart, my soul
The ‘oneness’ I had known to seek
Without you I merely exist from day to day
With you I know that I will find
All that I have been searching for
My completeness, my eternal peace of mind
You are the keeper of my dreams
The man who holds my heart in his hands
The one I want to spend my life with
The one with whom I will always stand
Stand beside through thick and thin
Through all that life will throw our way
Knowing that this special love we share
Will guide us, each and every day
This journey was started long ago
Before this time and place
The journey of completeness
As two hearts and souls embrace
Forever is what I want with you
For the search is at an end
Our hearts have found each other
As lovers, as soul-mates, as friends.
As Long As You’re Near By Christy Smith
The first time we met, I could see,
That you and I, were meant to be.
Your eyes were so gentle, your smile so true,
When you first held my hand, I just knew.
Now the time has gone by, through laughter and tears,
These days I shall cherish, for years upon years.
Those memories we have, shall never fade,
For those are the steps, that we have made.
That was the past, the future is near,
I anxiously wait, for what will appear.
New homes, more laughter, and children so dear,
Everything will be wonderful, as long as you’re near.
Motionless By Kelley Saint
If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,
So you’d always hold me, close and near.
In your arms, where I’m meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.
A bond so strong, a hold so tight,
To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr. Right’.
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I’ve found my one true love.
Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness.
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb..
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like these are meant to last.
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
One Wish by Courtney Kuchta
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
To the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine…
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
With anyone other than you.
What I Love About You by Crystal Jansen
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, “I love you,”
And the way you’re always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.
Never Have I Fallen by Rex Williams
Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest
I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight
Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away.
Your Name by Jessica Blade
I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
But the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
And forever it will stay.
Love is…by Meghan
Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can’t control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.
I Will Love You Forever by Amanda Martinez
I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I’ll love you forever
With all of my heart.
Forever And Always by Chris Engle
When I’m with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you…
You’ll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I’ve never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
“Forever And Always,
I Will Love You.”
My Love by Tasha Shores
My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.
My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.
My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It’s to you that I surrender.
Love by Loy Bowman
Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the girls I’ve ever met,
You’re the one I can’t forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you the best.
Love Me by Amanda Martinez
Love me in the springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the winter, when the snow is falling down.
Love me when I’m happy, and even when I’m sad,
Love me when I’m good, or even when I’m bad,
Love me when I’m pretty, or if my face is a disgrace,
Love me when I’m feeling good, or when I’m lost without a trace.
Love me always, baby, in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always, baby, after all is said and done,
Love me always, baby, until all our life is through,
Love me always, baby, for I’ll be loving you!
For You Are The One by Chris Messick
For you I would climb
The highest mountain peak
Swim the deepest ocean
Your love I do seek.
For you I would cross
The rivers most wide
Walk the hottest desert sand
To have you by my side.
For you are the one
Who makes me whole
You’ve captured my heart
And touched my soul.
For you are the one
That stepped out of my dreams
Gave me new hope
Showed me what love means.
For you alone
Are my reason to live
For the compassion you show
And the care that you give.
You came into my life
And made me complete
Each time I see you
My heart skips a beat.
For you define beauty
In both body and mind
Your soft, gentle face
More beauty I’ll ne’er find.
For you are the one
God sent from above
The angel I needed
For whom I do love.
Perfection In My Eyes by Ashley Borden
All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You’re perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I even thought we would,
I love you more than I even thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I’ll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.
I hope that one day you’ll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.
Will You Ever? By Erica
I don’t think you will
Ever fully understand
How you’ve touched my life
And made me who I am.
I don’t think you could ever know
Just how truly special you are
That even on the darkest nights
You are my brightest star.
I don’t think you will ever fully comprehend
How you’ve made my dreams come true
Or how you’ve opened my heart
To love and the wonders it can do.
You’ve allowed me to experience
Something very hard to find
Unconditional love that exists
In my body, soul, and mind.
I don’t think you could ever feel
All the love I have to give
And I’m sure you’ll never realize
You’ve been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
And without you I don’t know where I’d be.
Having you in my life
Completes and fulfills every part of me.
I Asked God by John Raine
I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet
I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day
I asked God for true love, he gave me that too
I asked for an angel and he gave me you.
Dreams by Jessica Trimble
I dream of your touch while you are away,
I dream of your smile all through the day,
I remember the day,
You came into my life,
I dream of the day I will be your wife.
I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,
I dream of the day I can say I do.
To be your wife,
To be together for life,
Is a dream I have,
Every night.
A Wish by Randy Schutte
I lie on the ground,
And stare into space,
The stars start to move,
Into the shape of your face.
I see you there now,
Looking down at me,
With that cute little smile,
That I like to see.
You say “close your eyes”,
“Tell me what you see”,
I see only two people,
Just you and me.
We’re walking on the shoreline,
With our feet getting wet,
The horizon turns pink, as the sun starts to set.
We make love through the night,
On that white sandy shore,
Then I hold you while thinking,
I could want nothing more.
Oh I wish I could be,
In that one special place,
As I lie on the ground,
And I stare into space…
Why? By Scott Wright
Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
Because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
So many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
The way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that you kiss, fills me with desire,
And how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
Lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you’re by my side,
A sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
The possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
How that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is my love for you is real.
Keeper Of My Dreams By Denise Mangano
When you’re not here to share my days and nights
My life is so incomplete
For you are my heart, my soul
The ‘oneness’ I had known to seek
Without you I merely exist from day to day
With you I know that I will find
All that I have been searching for
My completeness, my eternal peace of mind
You are the keeper of my dreams
The man who holds my heart in his hands
The one I want to spend my life with
The one with whom I will always stand
Stand beside through thick and thin
Through all that life will throw our way
Knowing that this special love we share
Will guide us, each and every day
This journey was started long ago
Before this time and place
The journey of completeness
As two hearts and souls embrace
Forever is what I want with you
For the search is at an end
Our hearts have found each other
As lovers, as soul-mates, as friends.
As Long As You’re Near By Christy Smith
The first time we met, I could see,
That you and I, were meant to be.
Your eyes were so gentle, your smile so true,
When you first held my hand, I just knew.
Now the time has gone by, through laughter and tears,
These days I shall cherish, for years upon years.
Those memories we have, shall never fade,
For those are the steps, that we have made.
That was the past, the future is near,
I anxiously wait, for what will appear.
New homes, more laughter, and children so dear,
Everything will be wonderful, as long as you’re near.
Motionless By Kelley Saint
If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,
So you’d always hold me, close and near.
In your arms, where I’m meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.
A bond so strong, a hold so tight,
To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr. Right’.
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I’ve found my one true love.
Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
05.14.09:Can't Sleep.
Can't sleep. Not even tired. *sigh* Today my friend told this guy who liked me to ask me out, but I told her I didn't want to go out with anybody at the time cuz of another guy that got my heart shattered to pieces. I had to explain to her the whole story about this other guy, and it was so complicated. I hate talking about it. I hate thinking about it. Because everytime I think about it, my head hurts.Everytime I talk about it, my lips begin to tremble, and I start to cry. I love Paramore. And Shiny. (: Almost the end of the week huh? That's good. These last few weeks I have been in TOTAL STRESS-OUT MODE! essay after test after quiz after project after homework...ARRGHH!! anyways, we're starting poetry in english class, and i lovee poetry, so this is gonna be fun! softball for 75 minutes is NOT fun. but i caught a ball today(; hah hah tylerrrr!! yay. I'm really bad at softball now after not getting enough practice. i think i'll focus more on tennis than softball, volleyball & basketball. i think softball volleyball & basketball will just be my pastimes. i have no idea what i'm writing about, but i know i'm still awake, so that's kinda bad. aren't i so talented that i can keep typing and not know what i'm saying? yeah total talent. okay i think i'll stop now cuz my brain is like, shutting down. like a electricity. *peeewwwww* click! gnite! :D
Sunday, May 10, 2009
05.10.09: Happy Birthday Sis! <3
Today is Sunday, May 10. Today is my bestest friend's birthday. Her name is Nica Cassandra De Jesus Monica Zulueta. Hehe. Quite a mouthful, yah? Today is also MOMMY'S DAY!! WOO HOO! give a hug or a kiss (or both!) to your mommies today! They are great people, even though you may not realize it (; My mom and I fight alot everyday, and it really takes a whoof outta me (does that even make sense?). My dad always reminds me that maybe God is trying to teach me and my mom something. Probably patience, he says. I think when I grow up , I'm gonna appreciate my mom better cuz, yennow, that's how life is. My brothers grew up without a mom, and I think that is completely horrible. They are missing a key part of their lives. There's just an empty void left in their heart that only their mother could have filled. She was never there while they were growing up, & my dad was a single parent. Now, my daddy's happy cuz he got remarried & he has a daughter (something he's always wanted Lmfao). But I can take quite a whoof outta him too. I shouldnt do this, I know, cuz it's disobeying God's commandment of honoring our parents, and cuz of my daddy's health issues. I`m much stronger & outspoken than I think he wanted his ideal daughter to be, but, he got his wish for a daughter, and that's all that counts, right? (: Happy Birthday Sis <3 ily ! =)
Friday, May 8, 2009
She stays up late listening to music that reminds her of him just so that she'll dream about him...
Wow. I finished reading Mountains Beyond Mountains. This is my 4th blog of the day, and I'm starting to get bored. Aren't you? ...You can just say it. 'Laurie, why are you still writing blogs then?' And my reply would be, 'Well cuz I want to b****.' I found a funny quote about that word:
Did you just call me a b****?
Well, a b**** is a female dog,
Dogs bark,
Barks are on trees,
Trees are a part of nature, &
Nature is beautiful.
So thanks for the compliment.
So next time, if you're about to call someone a b****, think about this.
THE QUOTES THAT MADE ME FEEL...COOL:
"I run with scissors cuz it makes me feel dangerous."
"I've got A.D.D. and magic markers. Oh the thrills I will have."
"Hey you. Yeah, you. No, not you...That other guy. You right there! Yes, you. Do you like tacos?"
:D Doesn't that give you a chilling tingle in your brain? Your brain says thankyou. It was on brainfart mode until they saw these quotes. Makes'em think yennow?
THE QUOTES THAT TOUCHED ME TODAY (not pedo-touched tho):
"Everything is such a blur. It didn't come out right. All of a sudden it's cold, and we're falling apart. No, this can't be. Please, don't leave me alone in the dark..." **I was gonna put this as my blog title, but stupid blogspot/blogger whatever won't let me. Too many letters. Pshh. Pure BS. (BaloneySandwich) >:/
"I miss screaming & fighting & kissing in the rain. It's 2 A.M. & I'm cursing your name. You're so in love that you act insane & that's the way I loved you. Breaking down & coming undone. It's a roller coaster kind of rush & I never knew I could feel that much & that's the way I loved you."
SOME RANDOM QUOTES I FELT LIKE PUTTING ON HERE:
"Maybe the truth is...we hide to see who will look for us. We cry to see who will wipe our tears away. And we get our hearts broken to see who will care enough to fix them again."
"For every broken heart, there's a guy standing there with a glue gun."
"You had your dreams; I had mine. You had your fears; I was fine. You showed me what I couldn't find. When two different worlds collide." - Two Worlds Collide by Demi Lovato
QUOTES THAT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL INTELLIGENT:
"Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you." -Christian D. Larson
"I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me. And I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve."
"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."
Did you just call me a b****?
Well, a b**** is a female dog,
Dogs bark,
Barks are on trees,
Trees are a part of nature, &
Nature is beautiful.
So thanks for the compliment.
So next time, if you're about to call someone a b****, think about this.
THE QUOTES THAT MADE ME FEEL...COOL:
"I run with scissors cuz it makes me feel dangerous."
"I've got A.D.D. and magic markers. Oh the thrills I will have."
"Hey you. Yeah, you. No, not you...That other guy. You right there! Yes, you. Do you like tacos?"
:D Doesn't that give you a chilling tingle in your brain? Your brain says thankyou. It was on brainfart mode until they saw these quotes. Makes'em think yennow?
THE QUOTES THAT TOUCHED ME TODAY (not pedo-touched tho):
"Everything is such a blur. It didn't come out right. All of a sudden it's cold, and we're falling apart. No, this can't be. Please, don't leave me alone in the dark..." **I was gonna put this as my blog title, but stupid blogspot/blogger whatever won't let me. Too many letters. Pshh. Pure BS. (BaloneySandwich) >:/
"I miss screaming & fighting & kissing in the rain. It's 2 A.M. & I'm cursing your name. You're so in love that you act insane & that's the way I loved you. Breaking down & coming undone. It's a roller coaster kind of rush & I never knew I could feel that much & that's the way I loved you."
SOME RANDOM QUOTES I FELT LIKE PUTTING ON HERE:
"Maybe the truth is...we hide to see who will look for us. We cry to see who will wipe our tears away. And we get our hearts broken to see who will care enough to fix them again."
"For every broken heart, there's a guy standing there with a glue gun."
"You had your dreams; I had mine. You had your fears; I was fine. You showed me what I couldn't find. When two different worlds collide." - Two Worlds Collide by Demi Lovato
QUOTES THAT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL INTELLIGENT:
"Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you." -Christian D. Larson
"I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me. And I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve."
"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."
He gave her 12 roses; 11 real, and 1 fake, and said, "I'll love you until the last rose dies."
Today, while I was taking a break after playing tennis, I sat in the grass and began to daze off. I had a daydream of him & I, laying on the grass, talking about things that didn't really matter, but talked about because we were bored. Then we started to camerawhore. Haha. Holding his hand, feeling his arms around mine, my head on his chest, looking up at the sky. I feel so secure, although it was just a dream. I want to tell him so badly how I truly feel, but I'm afraid that I'll scare him away, and our friendship would be ruined. I don't want to lose such a close friend, but at the same time, I want us to be more than friends. Everytime I think about him, I get butterflies, and those butterflies sure do hurt the tummy. But I ignore that annoying twinge of the fluttering of the butterflies, because I am so hypnotized by his perfection; his acceptance of my imperfect self. I love how he can tell me anything, and that he trusts me so much. One of my fears is that other girls would be jealous if we ever went out or something. No matter how many times these silly quotes say that we shouldn't care what others think, it still does not suffice for the pain and suffering we would go through by our closest friends; the people we love and care for so dearly. I would be too afraid & too weak to be able to let him go, and I would suffer even more if he let me go, and that is another reason why I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with him. It's a lose-lose situation. That is the reason why I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with any boy, in the sense that my heart wouldn't be able to endure the pain.
That takes me back almost about a year ago, when I fell for somebody, very hard. It started out beautifully, perfectly, practically flawless. I believed he was the one for me. He boosted my self-confidence, he psychologically helped me during the numerous volleyball & basketball games during the seasons; he was my inspiration to do well (in athletics). I would suffer the wrath of my parents' anger just so I could go watch his basketball games, and I believed it was truly worth it, since I believed he was the one. Another incident about another boy who asked me out, and (not purposely) had youtube videos posted saying "i love you." he even gave me a valentines card in front of our whole grade. i began to cry, for a reason I am, even at this point in time, am not sure of. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to this much attention. This came as a shock to me, for I never thought he liked me. I just thought of us as friends. When he asked me out, I told him no. He asked me again, and I refused. Now I regret being so cold to him, and I ask him now if he'll forgive me, cuz I was foolish & immmature, and I didn't know I was playing & breaking somebody else's heart. I know how you feel now, being heartbroken, because getting back to the first boy, as I've stated, everything was perfect. We talked about absolutely everything. He was always busy with his basketball league tournaments that we only got to exchange messages on Myspace, have AIM convos at 3 or 4 in the morning, or just talk at school. So many memories (mostly the ones we got in trouble) were carved into my head and my heart, and it still resides in them today. It broke off after the summer, and I was literally stunned. I didn't feel like doing things anymore. I became depressed. Lethargic. Apathetic. I cried myself to sleep every night, listening to songs that would remind me of him and make me cry harder. I wonder if the second boy went through this torture that is covered by the name 'heartbreak.' I was also pretty foolish about this first boy, because for the decision of where I went to high school, (I had to choose between two perfectly good schools; I only applied to two, and got into both), I chose the school that he was going too, because I wasn't aware at the time that we wouldn't be talking to each other ever again. I believed that our friendship would flourish if we went to the same school, but apparently I was completely wrong. During our 1st graduation party, we hugged, but I didn't really take note of it because I knew we weren't saying goodbye yet. My friends kept trying to get me to dance with him, by pushing me towards him, but I kept refusing. I survived the night. At graduation, with all the flurry and yelling&screaming, and photo-taking, I didn't take note of this either. We took a picture together, and it was kinda embarassing cuz his mom came up and took a picture of us too -.- I took pics w/ everybody in our graduating class except 2 or 3 people. Sorry you 2 or 3 people. :( After graduation, we went bowling. I was so entertained that everyone that was wearing white was glowing cuz it was so dark. Must have been the lighting or something...Haha. Anyways, after the party, we hugged, and he said, 'See you at (the high school we go to now)!' I thought he meant that we would be friends and hanging out together. But of course, I was unaware again, that this would be the last time we would be talking as best friends. Currently, I am still depressed & quiet and not as outgoing as I used to be. We still go to the same school, our lockers are quite close to each other, but we never talk. We hang out w/ different groups of people now. He has a new girlfriend, and I've moved on with other guys. I'm pretty much over it, but there's something still deep in my heart, that just can't let him go, and I'm still stressing about it. I don't like really telling this story alot, cuz it makes me sad. I usually let out all this negative energy flow out through my ardent passion for art, listening to my 'post-love/heartbroken' music, && writing poems. The best poems that I write are inspired by him. All the other ones I write are empty & have no meaning. As I have learned, when you pour your heart out on something, it usually touches peoples' hearts. But I have also learned that if you pour out too much of your heart for somebody, you'll have nothing left to give to your future relationships. Now I feel I can never love to the extent as I did with him; he took 95% of my love, and now I can only give 5% to my future loves. Sorry future loves; blame him. I gave him control over my heart. And now everyone will have to pay for it.
That takes me back almost about a year ago, when I fell for somebody, very hard. It started out beautifully, perfectly, practically flawless. I believed he was the one for me. He boosted my self-confidence, he psychologically helped me during the numerous volleyball & basketball games during the seasons; he was my inspiration to do well (in athletics). I would suffer the wrath of my parents' anger just so I could go watch his basketball games, and I believed it was truly worth it, since I believed he was the one. Another incident about another boy who asked me out, and (not purposely) had youtube videos posted saying "i love you." he even gave me a valentines card in front of our whole grade. i began to cry, for a reason I am, even at this point in time, am not sure of. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to this much attention. This came as a shock to me, for I never thought he liked me. I just thought of us as friends. When he asked me out, I told him no. He asked me again, and I refused. Now I regret being so cold to him, and I ask him now if he'll forgive me, cuz I was foolish & immmature, and I didn't know I was playing & breaking somebody else's heart. I know how you feel now, being heartbroken, because getting back to the first boy, as I've stated, everything was perfect. We talked about absolutely everything. He was always busy with his basketball league tournaments that we only got to exchange messages on Myspace, have AIM convos at 3 or 4 in the morning, or just talk at school. So many memories (mostly the ones we got in trouble) were carved into my head and my heart, and it still resides in them today. It broke off after the summer, and I was literally stunned. I didn't feel like doing things anymore. I became depressed. Lethargic. Apathetic. I cried myself to sleep every night, listening to songs that would remind me of him and make me cry harder. I wonder if the second boy went through this torture that is covered by the name 'heartbreak.' I was also pretty foolish about this first boy, because for the decision of where I went to high school, (I had to choose between two perfectly good schools; I only applied to two, and got into both), I chose the school that he was going too, because I wasn't aware at the time that we wouldn't be talking to each other ever again. I believed that our friendship would flourish if we went to the same school, but apparently I was completely wrong. During our 1st graduation party, we hugged, but I didn't really take note of it because I knew we weren't saying goodbye yet. My friends kept trying to get me to dance with him, by pushing me towards him, but I kept refusing. I survived the night. At graduation, with all the flurry and yelling&screaming, and photo-taking, I didn't take note of this either. We took a picture together, and it was kinda embarassing cuz his mom came up and took a picture of us too -.- I took pics w/ everybody in our graduating class except 2 or 3 people. Sorry you 2 or 3 people. :( After graduation, we went bowling. I was so entertained that everyone that was wearing white was glowing cuz it was so dark. Must have been the lighting or something...Haha. Anyways, after the party, we hugged, and he said, 'See you at (the high school we go to now)!' I thought he meant that we would be friends and hanging out together. But of course, I was unaware again, that this would be the last time we would be talking as best friends. Currently, I am still depressed & quiet and not as outgoing as I used to be. We still go to the same school, our lockers are quite close to each other, but we never talk. We hang out w/ different groups of people now. He has a new girlfriend, and I've moved on with other guys. I'm pretty much over it, but there's something still deep in my heart, that just can't let him go, and I'm still stressing about it. I don't like really telling this story alot, cuz it makes me sad. I usually let out all this negative energy flow out through my ardent passion for art, listening to my 'post-love/heartbroken' music, && writing poems. The best poems that I write are inspired by him. All the other ones I write are empty & have no meaning. As I have learned, when you pour your heart out on something, it usually touches peoples' hearts. But I have also learned that if you pour out too much of your heart for somebody, you'll have nothing left to give to your future relationships. Now I feel I can never love to the extent as I did with him; he took 95% of my love, and now I can only give 5% to my future loves. Sorry future loves; blame him. I gave him control over my heart. And now everyone will have to pay for it.
She's too scared to get close to anyone because the everyone that said 'I'll be there' left.
Do you remember when it was fun to play with toys? When you begged your parents to let you stay up past midnight, even though you never made it? When you asked for dolls for Christmas, and clothes were the worst presents? When you'd get up early to watch cartoon? When the sports you did were actually fun? When you wanted to go to school? When boys had cooties and all the girls got along? When your mom had to take you everywhere with her? When 'shut-up' and 'crud' were bad words? When you had Barbie sheets and pillowcases? When gettting mail was the most exciting thing in the world? When you got to cross the street by yourself for the first time? When five dollars could buy anything? When you became best friends with someone just because you had the same favorite color? When you and your siblings used to fight, but nobody really got hurt? When you got to stay home alone for the first time, even though your parents were across the street? When answering the phone was fun, even if it wasn't for you? When you used to yell at people who called you a little kid? When everyone loved the teacher? When hanging out meant spending one hour together playing in your backyard? When boys were allowed in your room? When you actually fell asleep at sleepovers? When Britney Spears was cool to listen to? When you didn't hate taking the bus? When your parents were your friends, and not embarassing? When the biggest arguments you had with your friend was about which singer was the best? When your parents picked your clothes, and you honestly didn't care? When you just wanted to grow up? When nobody labeled each other, or judged each other, or had huge fights, or was sexist, or racist; when cliques weren't important, and people cared for one another; when people didn't spread rumors, and didn't tell lies, and stood up for their friends, and sincerely didn't care what other people thought? Do you remember when we were all happy?
Because sometimes you have to step outside the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you want to be. The person that you are.
Duh, I love you<3 And trying to explain why is like trying to explain how water tastes. Completely impossible(:
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the [past]...stop planning the [future]...stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel. Stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with, 'whatever happens, happens.'"
One day at a time is enough...don't look back & grieve the past, it's gone..don't be troubled about the future, it has not come yet...live in the present, & make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.
There are gifts of many treasures, for both the young and old, from the tiniest little trinkets, to great boxes filled with gold. But put them all together and they could not stand in lieu, of the greatest gift of all, the gift of knowing you. When your times are filled with troubles; sadness, grief, or even doubt, when all those things you planned on, just aren't turning out. Just turn and look behind you, from the place at which you stand, and look for me through the shadows, and reach out for my hand. I will lift from you your burden and cry for you your tears, bear the pain of all your sorrows, though it may be for a thousand years. For in the end I would be happy, to have helped you start anew; it's a small price to pay, for the gift of knowing you.
And when she's gone, remember, you once loved her, you once needed her, you once cared about her more than anything in the world. you can't deny she was ever there. you can't deny what you had. you can't deny that it ended over absolutely nothing. you can't deny, that regardless, you still think about it. no other girl could ever love you the way she did she does one day, you'll realize what you've done. you'll come back. and she'll be gone.
Sometimes we tend to be in despair, when the person we care about leaves. But the truth is it's not our loss, it's theirs. Because they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them.
I'm the kind of girl who will dance in the pouring rain, smile like im fine when I"m not. Make you laugh when you want to cry. Wory more about you than me. Fall over laughing at the dumbest things. Always forgive but never forget. Who loves so many and hates so few. When she's loved by so few and hated by so many...
There are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept.Things we don't want to know, but we have to learn. & people we can't live without but have to let go..='(
To the crazy nights that went by too fast, && the days you hoped would never end. All the [drama], fights, and boys. To all the things you shouldn't have said, and all the things you should have. The friends you made and the friends you lost. Not to mention that ironic story of you && him. x3 All the hugs and kisses you wanted to last forever...the things he did that you sat up all night talking && thinking about. Those girls that ran their mouth [because][they][were][all][jealous]. The pictures you never wanted to lose. Of the moments you never want to forget. Smile to yourself and think. This is my life, and I love it.
If I had a nickel everytime I met a boy like you, I'd have five cents.
Don't listen when people say he's not good enough for you because truly--you are the only one who knows how he makes you feel <3
Some choose to live in the past full of blame, hate & self-pity...carefully planning every detail of their future in complete fear & insecurity...Life; I have learned, is fate, hope, & karma...the only thing you can be sure of and believe in is yourself.
Because sometimes you have to step outside the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you want to be. The person that you are.
Duh, I love you<3 And trying to explain why is like trying to explain how water tastes. Completely impossible(:
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the [past]...stop planning the [future]...stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel. Stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel...Sometimes we just have to go with, 'whatever happens, happens.'"
One day at a time is enough...don't look back & grieve the past, it's gone..don't be troubled about the future, it has not come yet...live in the present, & make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.
There are gifts of many treasures, for both the young and old, from the tiniest little trinkets, to great boxes filled with gold. But put them all together and they could not stand in lieu, of the greatest gift of all, the gift of knowing you. When your times are filled with troubles; sadness, grief, or even doubt, when all those things you planned on, just aren't turning out. Just turn and look behind you, from the place at which you stand, and look for me through the shadows, and reach out for my hand. I will lift from you your burden and cry for you your tears, bear the pain of all your sorrows, though it may be for a thousand years. For in the end I would be happy, to have helped you start anew; it's a small price to pay, for the gift of knowing you.
And when she's gone, remember, you once loved her, you once needed her, you once cared about her more than anything in the world. you can't deny she was ever there. you can't deny what you had. you can't deny that it ended over absolutely nothing. you can't deny, that regardless, you still think about it. no other girl could ever love you the way she did she does one day, you'll realize what you've done. you'll come back. and she'll be gone.
Sometimes we tend to be in despair, when the person we care about leaves. But the truth is it's not our loss, it's theirs. Because they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them.
I'm the kind of girl who will dance in the pouring rain, smile like im fine when I"m not. Make you laugh when you want to cry. Wory more about you than me. Fall over laughing at the dumbest things. Always forgive but never forget. Who loves so many and hates so few. When she's loved by so few and hated by so many...
There are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept.Things we don't want to know, but we have to learn. & people we can't live without but have to let go..='(
To the crazy nights that went by too fast, && the days you hoped would never end. All the [drama], fights, and boys. To all the things you shouldn't have said, and all the things you should have. The friends you made and the friends you lost. Not to mention that ironic story of you && him. x3 All the hugs and kisses you wanted to last forever...the things he did that you sat up all night talking && thinking about. Those girls that ran their mouth [because][they][were][all][jealous]. The pictures you never wanted to lose. Of the moments you never want to forget. Smile to yourself and think. This is my life, and I love it.
If I had a nickel everytime I met a boy like you, I'd have five cents.
Don't listen when people say he's not good enough for you because truly--you are the only one who knows how he makes you feel <3
Some choose to live in the past full of blame, hate & self-pity...carefully planning every detail of their future in complete fear & insecurity...Life; I have learned, is fate, hope, & karma...the only thing you can be sure of and believe in is yourself.
05.08.09: Have fun at Senior Prom, Seniors!
Today is Friday. I have a day off cuz of senior prom, as I mentioned yesterday. This morning, I woke up at 7:40am. I dont know why. Its something with my body or something. Well, I played some Mario Party on my DS and it took me 8 times to beat a boss. I'm usually not that addicted to video games anymore, but when I'm bored, I just like to press those buttons(; Well, I finally got out of bed at 9:20, washed up, and went downstairs, cuz I heard somebody downstairs. It was an old guy in our kitchen, fixing our sink. I didn't really want an old guy to be the first person I see in the morning. I sat down at the computer, checked my Facebook, and decided to go play tennis w/ my dad, who took the day off so mr. sink-fixer dude could...well, yennow, fix our sink. I really wasnt in the mood to play tennis, but I just played anyways, cuz I needed to get my exercise. I usually do 200 jumping jacks and 150 crunches/situps a day, but I guess since I have the day off, my dad told me to go play w/ him. It was so sunny, I couldnt even see. Why is it so sunny at 10 in the morning? Anyways, played for an hour, came home, and sat there for 15 minutes deciding what to have for lunch. Decided to have ramen & sushi. Yum(= Well, I'm working on my English, and I have to prepare for an essay, write a letter to a corporation about marine pollution, and finish reading Mountains Beyond Mountains. Ugh. Only 3 more chapters. I really dislike biographies. I'm more of a fiction person. So, yeah, as always I'm procrastinating. I'm also reading this printout my mom printed about becoming a marine biologist. I'm really interested in becoming one. Bye-bye my ideal career as a lawyer. As Chip says, "How can you be a lawyer? You barely talk during class debates/discussions." And my brother's studying to be a criminal justice prosecutor, and he studies 24/7, and he just got pneumonia without even knowing it. No thankyou, lawyerstudying. I really care for animals, and I sorta wanna put this in my letter to the corporation, that I care about marine pollution because I care about animals, and my most favorite place in the world is the beach, because its my thinking place, and my thinking is interrupted by all the debris that washes up on shore, and the dirtiness of the ocean and the beach because of marine pollution. I mean like, what if marine pollution wipes out all the animals? Then the future generations won't be able to appreciate & experience the beauty of marine animals and marine life. Anyways, that's what I'm procrastinating on, so more quotes! Whoopee!! =D
"It's the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you everything & nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go & you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want him in your life so bad, but all you can do is push him farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back on how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same."
"What's Minnie without Mickey, What's Tigger without Pooh, What's Patrick without Spongebob, What's Me without You <3"
"When life knocks you down to your knees, just remember that you are in the perfect position to pray."
"Life is like a rough draft of an English paper you are doing the night before it's due. It has some great parts to it and it is full of great ideas but it isn't quite put together. It's ripped at the edges from where it was stuffed in a backpack and has many pen marks where you wanted what you wrote to be erased but it was already written in pen. It is also full of sentences that are worth every single mistake you could ever make. Great memories and stupid mistakes are just a part of it. It has some rough patches. Sometimes you really just want to stop writing, but you can't, because this matters just as much now as it will later on. The more you write and the more you think, the better this paper gets. You realize how great it is and even if you don't get an A+ you know that this is worth it, it is all worth it. The scratched out marks are realization of what can be better in the future and you have learned from everyone. So keep writing, because when you are handing your paper in, you don't want it to be half done and full of things that were just okay and could be better. When you read over your work you want to say it was the best you could have done."
"Living life means not looking back to things you'd rather forget...Life means looking forward to a future that you'd rather not have...Life is not forgetting the people who touched your heart...Life is living the way that you want to...LIFE MEANS GETTING YOUR HEART BROKEN...Life means trying to fix it yourself...Life means trying to move on...Life means waiting for that special someone...Life means dying...BUT NOT UNTIL YOU'VE FOUND THEM."
"I want to be his last call of the night, his first thought in the morning; five hour conversations, the ones with "no, you hang up first", him to make my heart race, give me sweaty palms, hugs that you never want to let go of, but most of all, I want to be considered his."
"I know it's hard for us to be together but I do understand it's harder to live without one another. I just wan to let you know that even though we cannot be together we will never ever be apart because the love that I have for you will always grow stronger, as long as I live."
"When I first met you, I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you; I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When I first met you I never would've thought that I would love you."
"Cuz if you only knew what i felt for you, you would have held on tighter, fought a little harder, been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love."
"Tell her how you admire her. Always tell her you love her at all times. When she's upset hold her tight. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair. Pick her up, tickle her, and wrestle with her. Just talk to her. Tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Throw pebbles at her window at night. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Sing to her no matter how awful you sound. Get her mad at you. Then kiss her. Give her piggyback rides. Push her on the swings. Tell her she looks beautiful. When she's sad, stay on the phone with her, even if she's not saying anything. Look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead. Slow dance with her even if there's no music. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her...tell her."
"Love is when you find someone you can really be yourself with and that you can share anything with. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that person. When words don't even come close to how you really feel and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know you were meant to be together. <3<3<3"
"Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life."
"Once upon a time...I knew who I was. Scars are souvenirs you never loose. I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me. If annoyed any further, I shall spork your eyes out. I don't want to admit it: It was easier to lie, to hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry."
"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit, Or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me<3"
"The greatest challenge in life is: to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes, yet still loves everything about you."
"I'm speechless, stunned, with nothing to say. I never knew you'd speak all of this today. Your words were too strong, that they made me weak. It was very deep, my eyes almost leaked. I'm so worked up and so stressed out, you're the boy who helps me out, I'm happy that I know you're here for me, but you say you love me, how can this be? They are such strong words, that run in my head, if I ever lost love, I'd rather be dead. I want to be yours, but I'm scared this could end, and then we'd eventually stop being friends. You're too much to lose, so I'll grab you tight, and hopefully we'll start up something tonight. Do I love you? We already discussed. It's a no, but you're more than a crush. Baby, grab my hand and enter my land, because I want you to know me better and understand. I'm confusing, weird, and crazy inside, so our relationship will be a dizzy ride. So why is it so hard for you to ask? Telling me how you feel didn't seem a hard task. So open your mouth and move those lips. Tell me you want me and put your hand around my hips. My answer is obvious, I'm so starstruck, No, not by your looks, but time's running out. Don't ever leave me, please don't hurt, I never wanna find another guy to flirt."
"I guessed wrong but I assumed it be true, that love came from the heart, pulling us together but never apart, starting the beginning of me and you. A mistake I thought that I could have never made, though it was real and not a game, keeping my hopes up and keeping them strong, only to fall and never belong."
"I hope you know how much you mean to me. I hope you know how much I care. I try so hard to make you smile. I always say, "You've got great hair!" I want to be so much to you. I want to hear you say,"I love you" more and more each day. Don't ever go away!"
"Never say 'I love you' if you don't really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if you're gonna break my heart. Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start. Never look into my eyes, if all you do is lie. Never say hi if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever. Then say you will try. Never say forever, cuz forever makes me cry."
"It's the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you everything & nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go & you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want him in your life so bad, but all you can do is push him farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back on how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same."
"What's Minnie without Mickey, What's Tigger without Pooh, What's Patrick without Spongebob, What's Me without You <3"
"When life knocks you down to your knees, just remember that you are in the perfect position to pray."
"Life is like a rough draft of an English paper you are doing the night before it's due. It has some great parts to it and it is full of great ideas but it isn't quite put together. It's ripped at the edges from where it was stuffed in a backpack and has many pen marks where you wanted what you wrote to be erased but it was already written in pen. It is also full of sentences that are worth every single mistake you could ever make. Great memories and stupid mistakes are just a part of it. It has some rough patches. Sometimes you really just want to stop writing, but you can't, because this matters just as much now as it will later on. The more you write and the more you think, the better this paper gets. You realize how great it is and even if you don't get an A+ you know that this is worth it, it is all worth it. The scratched out marks are realization of what can be better in the future and you have learned from everyone. So keep writing, because when you are handing your paper in, you don't want it to be half done and full of things that were just okay and could be better. When you read over your work you want to say it was the best you could have done."
"Living life means not looking back to things you'd rather forget...Life means looking forward to a future that you'd rather not have...Life is not forgetting the people who touched your heart...Life is living the way that you want to...LIFE MEANS GETTING YOUR HEART BROKEN...Life means trying to fix it yourself...Life means trying to move on...Life means waiting for that special someone...Life means dying...BUT NOT UNTIL YOU'VE FOUND THEM."
"I want to be his last call of the night, his first thought in the morning; five hour conversations, the ones with "no, you hang up first", him to make my heart race, give me sweaty palms, hugs that you never want to let go of, but most of all, I want to be considered his."
"I know it's hard for us to be together but I do understand it's harder to live without one another. I just wan to let you know that even though we cannot be together we will never ever be apart because the love that I have for you will always grow stronger, as long as I live."
"When I first met you, I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you; I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When I first met you I never would've thought that I would love you."
"Cuz if you only knew what i felt for you, you would have held on tighter, fought a little harder, been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love."
"Tell her how you admire her. Always tell her you love her at all times. When she's upset hold her tight. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair. Pick her up, tickle her, and wrestle with her. Just talk to her. Tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Throw pebbles at her window at night. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Sing to her no matter how awful you sound. Get her mad at you. Then kiss her. Give her piggyback rides. Push her on the swings. Tell her she looks beautiful. When she's sad, stay on the phone with her, even if she's not saying anything. Look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead. Slow dance with her even if there's no music. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her...tell her."
"Love is when you find someone you can really be yourself with and that you can share anything with. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that person. When words don't even come close to how you really feel and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know you were meant to be together. <3<3<3"
"Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life."
"Once upon a time...I knew who I was. Scars are souvenirs you never loose. I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me. If annoyed any further, I shall spork your eyes out. I don't want to admit it: It was easier to lie, to hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry."
"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit, Or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me<3"
"The greatest challenge in life is: to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes, yet still loves everything about you."
"I'm speechless, stunned, with nothing to say. I never knew you'd speak all of this today. Your words were too strong, that they made me weak. It was very deep, my eyes almost leaked. I'm so worked up and so stressed out, you're the boy who helps me out, I'm happy that I know you're here for me, but you say you love me, how can this be? They are such strong words, that run in my head, if I ever lost love, I'd rather be dead. I want to be yours, but I'm scared this could end, and then we'd eventually stop being friends. You're too much to lose, so I'll grab you tight, and hopefully we'll start up something tonight. Do I love you? We already discussed. It's a no, but you're more than a crush. Baby, grab my hand and enter my land, because I want you to know me better and understand. I'm confusing, weird, and crazy inside, so our relationship will be a dizzy ride. So why is it so hard for you to ask? Telling me how you feel didn't seem a hard task. So open your mouth and move those lips. Tell me you want me and put your hand around my hips. My answer is obvious, I'm so starstruck, No, not by your looks, but time's running out. Don't ever leave me, please don't hurt, I never wanna find another guy to flirt."
"I guessed wrong but I assumed it be true, that love came from the heart, pulling us together but never apart, starting the beginning of me and you. A mistake I thought that I could have never made, though it was real and not a game, keeping my hopes up and keeping them strong, only to fall and never belong."
"I hope you know how much you mean to me. I hope you know how much I care. I try so hard to make you smile. I always say, "You've got great hair!" I want to be so much to you. I want to hear you say,"I love you" more and more each day. Don't ever go away!"
"Never say 'I love you' if you don't really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if you're gonna break my heart. Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start. Never look into my eyes, if all you do is lie. Never say hi if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever. Then say you will try. Never say forever, cuz forever makes me cry."
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Procrastinating(: Peace Out, Girl Scout.
Today I have a ton of homework for the weekend, but I finished more than half of it in 3 hours, so I think I deserve to take a break. But of course, that will never happen, so I will call this 'procrastinating.'
"There is an inner beauty about a woman who believe in herself; who knows she's capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength & determination of a woman that follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, & move on."
"I tried so hard not to fall for you, I tried to keep my head above the water, but I went down so hard in the end, I fell so deep that I am still drowning, with no way back to the surface, it's killing me; all of this, and I can't let it go, I never wanted it to end, but you did, you did it with such force, I felt my heart break in to more than just pieces, it shattered completely into dust, I feel like I can never fall that deep again because of you, but I know someday in the distant future, when I know your heart does the same, I know that day I will be happy again."
"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wondeful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best times of my life."
"I don't forgive people because I'm weak; I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know people make mistakes."
"Her favorite song will say more about her than her mouth ever will." :)
"Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."
"Just because you see no tears doesn't mean I have no fears, && just because I come off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong."
"Please don't tell me not to cry. Please don't say there was a reason why. You don't know what I am feeling. Or how much I hurt. The wet spots are from tears on the collar of this shirt. You think I should go on with life. Forget about it and be strong. But deep down I am sad, and I don't want to go along. I don't expect you to understand why. For no apparent reason I break down and start to cry. My life has changed forever, you see. And that is why I am not acting like the same old me. So please don't try to act like noting happened. Because it's changed my life forever. I will never be the same again. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever. The best thing you can do for me is just be there. Just like always, my friend. My broken heart is hurting bad, and it will never mend."
"You came into my life as an unwelcome face, not ever knowing our friendship, I would one day embrace. As I wonder through my thoughts and memories of you, it brings many big smiles and laughter so true. I love the special bond that we beautifully share, I love the way you show you really care, Our friendship means the absolute world to me, I only hope this is something I can make you see. Thank you for opening your mind and your soul, I will do all I can to help heal your heart's little holes. Remember, your secrets are forever safe within me, I will keep them under the tighest lock and key. Always remember...if you're ever in need, I will try to be, the best friend I can possibly be. Thank you for trusting me right from the start. You truly have got a wonderful heart. I am now so happy I felt that embrace, for now I see the beauty of my best friend's face..."
"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. you can't live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me...you brought another friend...and then there were three...we started our group....our circle of friends...and like that circle...there is no beginning or end...yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it the present."
Fallen Angel;; This angel may have a broken soul but she still has the strength to watch over those he loves. Take heed...this house is protected by an angel...My Fallen Angel;;Ascend to light, descend to dark. They say it's all over now, but it's just begun...each time something's complete, something else is yet to be done. I can't take this much longer, always struggling for survival...always hiding in the darkness...so restless is my shattered soul, it will suffocate me 'til death...rise again from the grave, ascend tot eh ligh, and fall again. Forever, my fallen angel. Dispair;; When darkness clouds the light, when the wind howls in the dead of night, let the whispers fill your ears, with the howling screams of your worst fears. The sight of the crows that caw with hate, almost as bone chilling as the mandrake. Seeing tears in the eyes of a pale woman, over your head lies an evil omen! Why would you bring such sorrow and dispair? Perhaps the fact that no ones cares...Fall to your knees and close your eyes; Drop to the ground and let yourself die..."
"Well, it's no secret that the best thing about secrets is secretly telling someone your secret, thereby adding another secret to your secret collection of secrets, secretly." -Spongebob Squarepants ;)
"You can't tell someone you love them, and then change your mind; that's not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them don't you? Isn't there always a part of you that thinks of them for no reason? They'll always be in the back of your mind and no matter how much you love someone else you will always love him too."
"Meeting you was fate. Becoming your friend was a choice. But falling in love with you was beyond my control."
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are. Others who broke my heart. They were like north stars, pointing me on my way, into your loving arms. God blessed the broken road, that led me straight to you."
"There is an inner beauty about a woman who believe in herself; who knows she's capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength & determination of a woman that follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, & move on."
"I tried so hard not to fall for you, I tried to keep my head above the water, but I went down so hard in the end, I fell so deep that I am still drowning, with no way back to the surface, it's killing me; all of this, and I can't let it go, I never wanted it to end, but you did, you did it with such force, I felt my heart break in to more than just pieces, it shattered completely into dust, I feel like I can never fall that deep again because of you, but I know someday in the distant future, when I know your heart does the same, I know that day I will be happy again."
"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wondeful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best times of my life."
"I don't forgive people because I'm weak; I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know people make mistakes."
"Her favorite song will say more about her than her mouth ever will." :)
"Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."
"Just because you see no tears doesn't mean I have no fears, && just because I come off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong."
"Please don't tell me not to cry. Please don't say there was a reason why. You don't know what I am feeling. Or how much I hurt. The wet spots are from tears on the collar of this shirt. You think I should go on with life. Forget about it and be strong. But deep down I am sad, and I don't want to go along. I don't expect you to understand why. For no apparent reason I break down and start to cry. My life has changed forever, you see. And that is why I am not acting like the same old me. So please don't try to act like noting happened. Because it's changed my life forever. I will never be the same again. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever. The best thing you can do for me is just be there. Just like always, my friend. My broken heart is hurting bad, and it will never mend."
"You came into my life as an unwelcome face, not ever knowing our friendship, I would one day embrace. As I wonder through my thoughts and memories of you, it brings many big smiles and laughter so true. I love the special bond that we beautifully share, I love the way you show you really care, Our friendship means the absolute world to me, I only hope this is something I can make you see. Thank you for opening your mind and your soul, I will do all I can to help heal your heart's little holes. Remember, your secrets are forever safe within me, I will keep them under the tighest lock and key. Always remember...if you're ever in need, I will try to be, the best friend I can possibly be. Thank you for trusting me right from the start. You truly have got a wonderful heart. I am now so happy I felt that embrace, for now I see the beauty of my best friend's face..."
"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. you can't live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me...you brought another friend...and then there were three...we started our group....our circle of friends...and like that circle...there is no beginning or end...yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it the present."
Fallen Angel;; This angel may have a broken soul but she still has the strength to watch over those he loves. Take heed...this house is protected by an angel...My Fallen Angel;;Ascend to light, descend to dark. They say it's all over now, but it's just begun...each time something's complete, something else is yet to be done. I can't take this much longer, always struggling for survival...always hiding in the darkness...so restless is my shattered soul, it will suffocate me 'til death...rise again from the grave, ascend tot eh ligh, and fall again. Forever, my fallen angel. Dispair;; When darkness clouds the light, when the wind howls in the dead of night, let the whispers fill your ears, with the howling screams of your worst fears. The sight of the crows that caw with hate, almost as bone chilling as the mandrake. Seeing tears in the eyes of a pale woman, over your head lies an evil omen! Why would you bring such sorrow and dispair? Perhaps the fact that no ones cares...Fall to your knees and close your eyes; Drop to the ground and let yourself die..."
"Well, it's no secret that the best thing about secrets is secretly telling someone your secret, thereby adding another secret to your secret collection of secrets, secretly." -Spongebob Squarepants ;)
"You can't tell someone you love them, and then change your mind; that's not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them don't you? Isn't there always a part of you that thinks of them for no reason? They'll always be in the back of your mind and no matter how much you love someone else you will always love him too."
"Meeting you was fate. Becoming your friend was a choice. But falling in love with you was beyond my control."
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are. Others who broke my heart. They were like north stars, pointing me on my way, into your loving arms. God blessed the broken road, that led me straight to you."
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